Sunday, September 23, 2007

The Looming Shadow

Act One :

Panic begins to set in.
The Heart pumps with increasing acceleration.

Act Two :

Anxiety and Fear strikes.
The Mind braces itself for impact.
The Body shivers.

Act Three :

Temporal mental instability kicks in.
Hallucinations are present everywhere.

Final Act :

Stress reaches critical levels.
The Promos has arrived.

May the Promos go well for all.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

The Impending Genocide




When the starts of the P.R.O.M.O. Exams drawing near, it is inevitable that people will feel anxiety, fear, stress. And so on.

But all these tension bout the Promo Exams are somewhat of the scale :

It actually feels like the impending exam spells doom for the whole of mankind, and everyone is grieving.

And this is the first time in my short 17 years, that I actually see such an atmosphere. Well, I personally believe that this will not be the last time I'll be seeing such an ambience.

The mood before the exam is hazardously infectious.
One cant help but to feel depress.
But the magnitude of depression varies for each and everyone.

I've heard numerous stories which prophesied people with the capability to get promoted to J2 being retained.

I've to say that it's absolute nonsense. Have a little faith in yourself people~!

Have faith, don't be deluded. And believe.
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A silent prayer for all my College friends.
May everyone get promoted and be enlightened on the importance of the A level exams.
May everyone remain healthy and cheerful, for their moods influence my day.

And an additional prayer for you : Shine on. Smile beautifully for eternity.

Monday, September 03, 2007

Dangyunhaji

Who've expected that Silence is able to simply debunk everything I've believed in.

Who would have known that Silence is able to make you feel Regret? Sorrow? Guilt? Anxiety?

You never gave me an verbal answer.
Though your actions had seem to answer my question to you.

You made me question my values. My Worth. My Character.
It's kinda degrading ya know?
Not to at least a clear cut answer.
But I dont blame you.
I'm plagued by insecurities for a very, very long time. It's a matter or personal perception.

It has been decided that this shall come to a standstill.
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I'm gonna learn Lee Jong Soo's eagle-eyed mode.
I'm gonna search for my lost wittiness.
I'm gonna let go - But never fully.
Cause it's through this that I learn.

A Pang of Guilt

Something happened abruptly last Thursday.
Something which no one expected to happen.
Something which is totally unpredictable.

A Male Teacher Wept.

All this while he worried most for the 27 students of 07S208, but his care towards his students went unappreciated. Students still led life like nothing else in the world mattered, when in reality, their failures during the Promos examination may cost them their bright future. He worries,

He bought cookies and chocolate bars for the "improving" students,
but yet he could not keep his grief. Tears fell.

Yet some people took it upon as a joke. Saddening.

What vile creatures are we to make a teacher, a Male Teacher to tear?

Remarks made to the class have been poor. This indirectly highlights how effective the CT is. The class had been also highlighted as "The Class with Potential", but what is the reasons for such poor grades? Time management? Stress? Laziness?

Not that I've not heard of those. And I do not know the reasons to why the others produce such poor results.

For mine. I guess it's my character.
I question alot about everything.
I lack motivations.
I lack the stamina to stick through my resolutions.
I'm weak minded.

Sorry to whip up another excuse, but my confidence has been eroded away.
Not much of it remains.
And confidence isnt built up within a day.

But. Enough of this excuses.
Even with the lack of confidence, motivation,
I shall blind myself momentarily from the reality,
to strive hard for the Promos,
for my future, my survial depends on it.

Most importantly, there's still a speck of dissatisfaction which resides in me. Although small, it's slightly significant to push me to prepare for the Promos.