Thursday, January 03, 2013

I don't always fall in love, but when I do...

Just a few days into a new year, I've rejoined the ranks of the ForeverAlones.

Not that she and I were officially together in a sense, but we were dating.
I never knew how she viewed our relationship.
Not that I'd ever know,
Since she is calling an end to it.

Two weeks
That was all it took for things between us to deteriorate.
We are strangers to each other now.

There were never any warning signs.
All the time we spent together
And before she returned back to the states,
Things seemed fine.
Or I was wrong?

During the two weeks when we were apart,
Things between us just fell apart.
I do not know what things or events back home influenced her to make such decision
But I could see that she had made up her mind.

I could read and sense all those signs.

But being depressed, I'd say,
Gives you an uncanny ability to sense the emotions of others.
Did she really think that I'm that stupid to not sense things weren't right?


I feel so angry.
Betrayed.
That she did not discussed matters with me before taking them to her own hand.

I trusted her too much.
And she did warn me
"Don't trust me that easily."
I feel hate.
For giving her my trust.

All the things we've done together.
All for naught.
Everything seems to be a big fat joke.

If she wants to end it
Please end it fast.
Don't drag it and make it painful for me.
At least I could get on with life.
If I had one.

Maybe it was a mistake that we got together in the first place.
My mistake.

And with this, my only reason of why I chose to stay in hall for a second year
Just went away.