Nobody follows the philosophy behind Hakuna Matata.
Which is quite saddening.
The hectic lifestyle.
The increasing workload.
The increasing nonsense I hear.
And again, no one understands.
How boring. How Frustrating. How saddening.
Guess I'm a little too busy recently to blog what I really want, so I guess most of my thoughs will be stuck in my head. My heart. For a while.
After the Promos and PW presentation, I'm so gonna slack. Like I always did during secondary school days, except I wonder if it still feels as good as it did before. Slacking in my JC, is condemned by almost everyone. Makes me wonder, once again, to why I chose JC over Poly. Not that poly is slack, but I'm more adapted for the Poly way of life.
Haiz. I want my slack slack Life back please. And I want the Halo 3 : legendary edition too. Mircosoft, please import it to Singapore. Share the joy~ After all the 360 slogan is :" It's good to play together." So why keep us out sia?
If you're Nice, Sweet, Honest and Sincere, Hakuna Matata. Dont lie though.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Saturday, August 04, 2007
The Silent Whimper
Well I cant believe I'm was so busy for the past few weeks, that it almost virtually killed me off. I managed to survive with just really dark eye bags, a persistent sore throat, a bloody weird feeling like over-stretching of the neck and a flu. Right now my head is feeling warm, my nose feels kinda stingy. I've checked the mirror, it made my eye bags looked even more obvious. Why am I'm blogging now instead of resting? Heck if I know.
I think I'm not really myself for the past few months. I've lived those days like some zombie, or with some alien manipulating my body with some weird devices. Everything seems oblivious to me. Maybe it's just mental fatigue. Physically, I seem normal. Mentally, I'm exhausted. It's almost near the breaking point. The reason is kinda dumb if you ask me. It's neither bout the hectic JC life, it's not bout being disappointed with your CCA nor it's not about not being able to meet any with the same frequency.
It's about me. Me(s).
In my head, there seems to be a war waging between two parties. Or perhaps even more. Who knows? Those stuffs above regarding bout the school and stuffs, well, they're more like catalysts. Something happened early this year, and I forgot what really happened. Or what even happened. I just lost faith in my view, my values, my beliefs and everything else. I lost faith in myself.
This bloody war in my head is getting into me. The mind could only handle so much, yet it still marvels me. Almost a year and still going quite strong, but it's showing signs of cracks in its defences.
I need faith, but faith only exists for those who truly believes in it?
I think I'm not really myself for the past few months. I've lived those days like some zombie, or with some alien manipulating my body with some weird devices. Everything seems oblivious to me. Maybe it's just mental fatigue. Physically, I seem normal. Mentally, I'm exhausted. It's almost near the breaking point. The reason is kinda dumb if you ask me. It's neither bout the hectic JC life, it's not bout being disappointed with your CCA nor it's not about not being able to meet any with the same frequency.
It's about me. Me(s).
In my head, there seems to be a war waging between two parties. Or perhaps even more. Who knows? Those stuffs above regarding bout the school and stuffs, well, they're more like catalysts. Something happened early this year, and I forgot what really happened. Or what even happened. I just lost faith in my view, my values, my beliefs and everything else. I lost faith in myself.
This bloody war in my head is getting into me. The mind could only handle so much, yet it still marvels me. Almost a year and still going quite strong, but it's showing signs of cracks in its defences.
I need faith, but faith only exists for those who truly believes in it?
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