If only school was a Boss monsters or something. At least it can be defeated.

YAWNZ.

It's already July le.

Times flies when you're in JC. Back in the good old secondary school days, time didnt even fly that fast. I had time to nap, play games(Lots of it too), watch TV and just spacing out. Now... Time has officially become some sort of scarcity. My demand for Time is TOO BIG. So big that it's eating into my sleeping time.

And what's cause without effects? Stiff necks. Worse than before, and it feels more and more like someone is either squeezing or stretching the hell out of my neck/shoulder muscles. Another thing is that my body, apparently has reached its limits, or I'm getting old liao. I cant survive long nights. Wait. Let me rephrase that. I cant survive Long Nights and Long Days continuously. And to make it worse, I quickly adapted back to sleeping after morning (How's 6am for starters? Now imagine for the whole of June Holidays..), and when school started, it was HELL FOR ME. Eyes feeling like they've been in the oven, my mind and limbs are getting more and more numb by this exhaustion. My mind is a total blank during school mornings, having less controls over my limbs, aching neck and sometimes fingers, and ultimately. My speech. Man, how to speak when your mind is like...TOTALLY WASTED SIA. It's a miracle that I can still even move my mouth to speak.

I feel like a wasted person. Haiz. Rotting in the inside too. This lifestyle sucks sia. There's no "true" purpose, I only live to mug. YAWNZ. Where's all the fun? Though there's this sayin' :

In every Job that has to be done, there's an element of Fun. And when you find the Fun, SNAP! The Job's a game~!

Sorry people, I'm not saint or some workaholic. I do thinks cause it's Fun. Or if it serves a meaningful purpose. And well. Studying has some fun, which I surprisingly found out last year during the "Month Long Mugging With Uncle John and Friends", but...In JC, it isnt bout studying. It's bout everything else except Fun. Fun via learning? Nah, not during my schooling time. Maybe in the future? God knows.

Politics exists at various education levels, primary, secondary etc. But after graduating from secondary school, One may be surprised by how intense Politics are in JCs. I dont know bout Poly, but from how I view it, if you like Projects, then it's your calling. As for JCs, it's the breeding ground for potential future politicians. But they need more time to mature though, cause at this level, most tend to decide on matters using their emotions.

Workload is another killer, cause you'll be in school for bout...10 hours. Yeap. 10 whopping hours. Not including travelling time by the way. Even adults dont require to work that long sia. And another thing? They get paid.

Democracy in schools are bullshit. Sorry for the strong word used. But it's full shit. Seriously. Vote for someone cause they look hot? Please, we're voting for people who'll devote their time and effort for the school, not voting for "The Hottest Babe and Hunk". Another thing, Popularity vote? SHEESH. Dont vote for people cause they're your friends. In fact, you should decide and vote by concluding if they could handle such responsibilities. Sometimes, popularity voting can be brought to another higher level, which I personally seen before. Your friends expect, and in fact, ask you to vote for a certain someone, and you're expected to do so, cause when friends tell you to do something, you must accomplish it. So, if you dont do so, you'll be questioned, and suay suay ar, the friendship's over. Sad huh, when people say kids and teens nowadays mature faster, well. I think it's in terms of Fashion. Nothing much bout the being rational part.

Exams, HAIZ. THE MOST DEGRADING and THE MOST LETHAL thing you can ever experience in JC life. Exams are much tougher compared to the ones you had back in secondary school or even primary school. Well for example, I've obtained U (The Lowest ever grade you can possibly ever get) for all subjects except Chinese. Ok, I've not gotten back my maths paper yet, but oh well. I guess it's a U.But I got 23 for Physics even though I didnt study for it, I didnt even attempt most tutorials, and I got a 23. Compared to some I know who mugged hard, they got bout 30+. So...Mugging could only get you an additional 10 marks only. Rewarding? Hard to say.

The subjects I'm studying now are kinda interesting, but the school life and exams just have to kill it off. Life now just sucks. Well sorry for being pessimistic, but I dont really like the idea of lying to myself and saying,"Hey, Life's great~! I've having a great time getting killed off by school."