I can't make it through without a way back into...

Hmm. There're somethings that is distracting me from my daily activities in life.
Somethings which weigh heavily in my mind.
Things which distract me from my studies.
Simple, linear tasks which would seem idiot proof by my standards in the past, suddenly becomes tedious and mind boggling to complete.

Silly, perhaps laughable mistakes which I should or would not have committed when I'm mentally sane, confident or joyful, keep appearing recently. Errors which I would rarely allow to occur on purpose keep appearing before my very eyes, even though I didnt plan for them to happen.

A sudden loss in insight, a rapid decline in the ability to grapse basic logical concepts, the apparent dip in memory, and finally, irregular sleeping habits. All of which can only be the symptoms of... Something. I dont really know what is that illness/disease/disability or whatsoever it's called.

If only I could come to terms with them.

Jack, save yourself.
Afterall, you did survive through this once.