Breaking Silence

Sometimes I just cant understand,
What in the world my parents are saying (or yakking in some cases)
They can appear to be "supportive",
But in the next moment,
They undergo a 360 degree change
to become a devastating weapon firing [sarcastic, doubtful, insulting...] comments faster then you can say :"What in the F**king World..?!"

Stinking Hypocrites.
Make up your minds.
That is why sometimes I'll say,:
"How to you have Faith in yourself, when even those who're suppose to be close to you dont believe in you?"

Faith, or confidence dont just appear out of nowhere,
but can only be given by others.
That is unless you choose to lie to yourself or have a bloody huge Ego.

I assume, that my Parents undergo such "drastic" changes with regards to my stagnating results (My results cant get any worse LAWL),
And I'm not taking much actions to salvage this situation.
People will say:
"Prove your Parents wrong with your actions [Lah]!"
But I'll say:
"It's my life, so why should I dictate my actions to meet their expectation?"
"I decide my Life."

Parent are not perfect creatures.
But this does not absolve them from all the (stupid) mistakes they've committed.
Sure my parents shower me with Love and Care through certain "actions"
But that's not what I want.
They do not have the slightest hint to what I really want.
I Smile, Joke , be Nice and keep my Silence,
But that does not mean I have Forgiven.

I condemn those who restrict my Freedom.

= o.O = Confession of a Zombiefied Soul = O.o =

The Prelims are comin' and I don't even feel a slight boost in confidence, let alone feel prepared for the upcoming papers.

It's possible that I'll expect mostly U(s) again, followed by Frowny Faces and the constant echoing of "EPIC FAILURE" in the deep bowels of my mind.
Ironically, when I see the letter U, I'm always reminded of a smiley face.

Constantly drowned in Confusion,
The mind is unable to comprehend the bits and pieces of Life,
[Friendship, Family, Bonds, Relationships~]
Let alone being able to fully assimilate and comprehend the vastness knowledge,
something which I shake my head in Regret.

The pursuing of Absolute Knowledge is akin to understanding the Mind of God =3