I was checking my mail while I was blogging, and yes, I'm so bored that I'm double posting.

Les sent me this "must forward to many to have good luck with Love or die" chain e-mail( again ). I don't really like this kind of stuffs, cause it's dumb in some sense. As dumb as it seems, there's some mushy, yet nice and meaningful messages in it.

If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

That message,(particullarly the 1st sentence) I've heard it tons and tons of time from friends bout' my issue. It's kinda sad. I lack the courage to say it out. I'm very confused right now, and it's something which has no clear cut solutions to it. It may succeed, it may fail. I'm such a flirt, darn it.

Glitch In The System

My body clock has gone haywire for the past few days, cause I do not sleep before 2am, and also the fact that I only sleep for 9 hours for the past 2 days.

It all started because of this. After the big 'O's, I felt lost cause I had nothing to do. The only stress factor I had was having nothing fun to do, even during the frantic revisions in the unholy hours seemed fun. I had no cash to get new Xbox games, let alone a Xbox360. As bored as I am, I went to play Maple Story. There was I playing one whole day til bout' 11pm+, but it was still boring anyway. After that, it struck me. Insomania!(Spelt something like that)

Bored, bored, bored. I decided to stay up just to find stuffs to do. Apparently, there's not much to do. Bored to tears, I went to sleep. It was around 3~4am+ on Friday's morning. Big mistake. I forgot that I had to go to Maurice's house at 10. I woke myself up at 8+ but I needed a LONG time to kick start my body system. Coffee, some bread, something to increase adrenaline level.

I went to his house around 10~11am and played there for the whole morning and early afternoon(Man, his house is as big as mine. It's just that mine is 2 stories lol). I left around 3+ to make it for 4E1's class Bbq (Posting on mon*), but alas, I was late so I went alone. Even so I'm ok with that. I'm used to being a loner. By the way I saw a very gorgeous girl on the bus LoL, and no, I didn't try to hit on her or whatsoever cause it's complicated. And I meant VERY.

I had a great time at the Bbq, but it ended late (And I'll tell you why next time). I got my dad to fetch me and some friends (It's 12.15am for Heaven's sake. No bus). We escorted each and everyone back home, and when I reached home I didn't rush for the bed immedialately, cause I'm sweaty and smelly. Worse, I'm not exhausted. I could go on and play longer XD. Anyway I fooled around, blogged a little (See time of previous post), and went to bed (after bathing) around 6.15am today. And I woke up at 12 pm today, hungry. So I did the daily routine and blogged again. Cause I'm seriously bored.

-Bored to death. Going to find a job as soon as I'm back from China.

An Extreme Makeover

Today, I made a resolution to have an Extreme Makeover. Well maybe not that extreme, but hey a makeover is still a makeover.

*Crap. AsI'm typing this post, I saw a shadow. Twice. It's less than 50cm away from me. Is my brain or eyes tiring out ?
Ignoring it, and with goosebumps all over me, I continue the post.

Anyway as I was saying, I'm going to undertake a makeover.

I'm gonna quit Maple Story. Firstly, ugly Singaporean (Mostly teens) with poor EQ and possibly IQ. Secondly, monopolizing the game. Wizet did a great job of "encouraging" us to purchase the cash card, aka $ card, A card, A cash( 10,000 A cash for SGD$10.50 ), just because we need it to look cool. To spare us the misery of leveling at a snail's pace. Last and thirdly, I find no meaning or sense of purpose in MS anymore. Hey it's not that MS is a crappy game, it's a great game, just ruined by several factors, particullay UGLY Singaporeans. Rare kind Maplers are rare now.

I'm gonna have this approach to life. Follow One's heart.(Particually those which I want).

I'm gonna learn how to draw manga/anime to capture the beauty of life. It offers more than photo taking. I'm wanna learn Japanese/korean/German language/writing, marketing, sales and business, redesign my blog and I wanna buff up my body too LoL. It's to make up for the wasted years spent on nothingness.

Electric guitar playing is also another one, but not because I love Rock, Heavy Metal or other music genre but because of this (You gotta listen to it):
www.mothergoat.net/mp3/theprisoner-nonarr.mp3
and also this :
www.mothergoat.net/hail117anthem.mp3

I'm also gonna find some holiday jobs, maybe ranging from F&B, Sales, Office admin etc. I wanna see what these industries have to offer to me, and also for this two particular reasons: Entertainment (Xbox360, Wii and perhaps a PS3. Halo 3 and Gears Of War XD) and Luxury (AiPod? A digital camera? A destop comupter or laptop?)

Yesterday, on the 17th of Nov I went to 4E1 "last" class Bbq. At first I resented the thought of going there, cause it was suppose to be a chalet, and this Bbq was a last minute thing. But I enjoyed it. I'm not gonna blog bout' it now cause I don't have any of the pictures taken with me now, so perhaps next Monday just before I leave for China for a business trip. Seriously, it's a business trip.

By the way bout' the machine gun part by this lady named KC (http://everstarry.blogspot.com/), I'm kinda honoured actually. Oh yeah, she's from my class.

Andrew has his own Xbox360 now (Boo Hoo Hoo). I'm seem to be the only XBL guys without a 360. I want to play Gears Of War. NOW.

-Edwin, I hope your Grandfather will recover soon from ICU. See you at the dinner soon.

Hey they started it first !

I'm kinda lost for words now cause I finished my big 'O's, and I feel funny.

Not that I study til the wee hours of morning and suffer anxiety attack every few minutes, it's just that to suddenly stop studying feels funny.

I came home today, and my sub-consience told myself,:" Dude, you gotta play Maple Story today. Play til you drop."

My other sub-consience (Gemninis have 2 of each. So it's a good and a bad thing),
went :" No No No! Go sleep and just cool down. Think of doing something more meaningful."

Anyway I did play Maple for several hours, and I still pity the the future of Singapore's society.

1)I play MS for less than 15mins and my training area(Mixed Golem Forest) got raided not just by a party. 3 parties, and their average level was at least 90. My party only had 1 lvl 89 hermit, while the others were in our 70s. The "Mafia Boss" was this guy with the IGN : Disturb , and he can't even state a proper reason to why they (about 16 of them) raided the map. - What bout' Netball and whatever Sakura that guy is? They're not in the map. We dont know them. Why raid ?

2)Some girls have no respect for their gender. This guy joked about some crap bout' the "Vagina", and a girl replied,:"Want to play with it?" - WTF?! =.=, I can swear she sounds like a 14 yr old

3)Maple Story came up with the idea of having a Spa in this Gangster town, and the NPCs sold this robe. The Spa was mixed gender, and guys started going horny. Just within 3 visits there, I've heard : Molest, Hentai, F**K and even r@pe =.=.

4)Use of language. Really sad. Made no attempt to type "readable" english

5)There's more, but I'm lazy to type it out. To think MS is dominated by teenagers.

Pity pity.... Not that I'm a perfect Singaporean, but at least... Respect each other or Oneself.

*Thinks of Brother and shakes head.

- He's Inuyasha (With a very childish behaviour) and I'm more of Shessmoru. Does that mean bad ?

19:05 Hrs more ( As of time of last post )

Just 19Hrs and 5 mins more.

By the way,


You just gotta love the Chief.

The Horoscope Investigation : Pt 2

Now for mine. This will be more accurate than my Bro's. I hope.

Traditional Gemini traits

Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively

On the dark side....

Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistent
Cunning and inquisitive

Quotes from the text which are true bout me ?

-On the one hand it produces the virtue of versatility, and on the other the vices of two-facedness and flightiness.

-When they are good, they are very attractive; when they are bad they are more the worse for being the charmers they are

-Like children they are lively, and happy, if circumstances are right for them, or egocentric, imaginative and restless.

-They take up new activities enthusiastically but lack application, constantly needing new interests, flitting from project to project as apparently purposelessly as a butterfly dancing from flower to flower.

-To them life is a game which must always be full of fresh moves and continuous entertainment, free of labor and routine.

-Changing horses in the middle of the stream is another small quirk in the Gemini personality which makes decision making, and sticking to a decision, particularly hard for them.

-Since they lack the quality of conscientiousness, they are apt to fight a losing battle in any attempts they make to be moral (in the widest sense of the word).

-good qualities are attractive and come easily to them. They are affectionate, courteous, kind, generous, and thoughtful towards the poor and suffering - provided none of the activities resulting from expressing these traits interferes too greatly with their own lives and comforts.

-They quickly learn to use their outward attractiveness to gain their own ends, and when striving for these they will use any weapon in their armory - unscrupulous lying, and cunning evasiveness; escaping blame by contriving to put it on other people, wrapped up in all the charm they can turn on. In their better moments they may strive to be honest and straightforward, but self-interest is almost always the victor. If things go against them, they sulk like children.

-They reflect every change in their surroundings, like chameleons, and can become pessimistic, sullen, peevish and materialistically self-centered if circumstances force them to struggle in any way. If the conditions of life become really adverse, their strength of will may desert them entirely.

-can become uncertain of themselves, either withdrawn, or nervously excitable worriers, sullenly discontented, hard and irritable, with "Self" looming ever larger in their struggles.

-On the other hand their versatility can make them very adaptable, adjusting themselves to control the world around them by means of their inherent ingenuity and cleverness.

-Most Gemini have a keen, intuitive, sometimes brilliant intelligence and they love cerebral challenges. But their concentration, though intense for a while, does not last. Their mental agility and energy give them a voracious appetite for knowledge from youth onward, though they dislike the labor of learning. They easily grasp almost everything requiring intelligence and mental dexterity, and are often able to marry manual skills to their qualities of mind.

-Their intellect is strongly analytical and sometimes gives them so great an ability to see both sides of a question that they vacillate and find it hard to make decisions.

-If faced with difficulties, they have little determination to worry at a problem until they find a solution - they will pick the brains of others. In their intellectual pursuits, as in other departments of their lives, they risk becoming dilettantes, losing themselves in too many projects which they follow until they become difficult.

-In love they are fickle, not intentionally so but because of the basic inconsistency of their emotional nature, which has an amoral aspect to it. Their is a side to Geminians which can become deeply involved emotionally, and another, hostile to sentimentality, which stands back from a romantic situation, laughing at it and the protagonists in it, including themselves while analyzing it intellectually. Gemini subjects take nothing seriously. So, in love, in spite of their temporary depth of feeling, for the intensity of involvement lasts only while it is new, they are superficial, light-hearted, cool, flirtatious and unimaginative in the understanding of the pain they may give others. They like intrigue, the excitement of the chase, but once they have caught the prey, they lose interest and look around for the next creature to pursue. In less serious situations they make witty, entertaining companions, good acquaintances rather than friends. Even at their worst they are never dull - there is usually playfulness below the surface, and they can be brilliant conversationalists - but they can also be quarrelsome, prattlers, boasters, liars and cheats.

-manipulators of language, in speech and writing

Possible Health Concerns...

-seases and accidents associated with the upper part of the body, as well as nervous and pulmonary disorders such as catarrh and bronchitis.

-Their mercurial nature may also affect a constitution which is not strong if it is put under strain.

-You are prone to taking unnecessary risks and wind up harming yourself or others in the process. Sometimes pursuing pleasure too vigorously could also qualify as risk taking.

* LIKES Talking
Novelty and the unusual
Variety in life
Multiple projects all going at once
Reading

* DISLIKES Feeling tied down
Learning, such as school
Being in a rut
Mental inaction
Being alone

Go here to see the rest of the info
http://www.astrology-online.com/gemini.htm

The Horoscope Investigation : Pt 1

Today's papers were E Mths and Social Studies(SS), and gosh, I think they went well cause I THINK that those papers were easy. A little too easy.*Gulps*

Ok forget about those long tuitions I am having these days, and I want to focus on one thing for now.

Horoscope~

This Horoscope system has intrigue me since I was a little boy, but I paid no special attention to it, cause...I'm can't be bothered =X
But today it's different. I want to put it on a test by using me, my brother ( Total cocky JERK. But it's a brotherly thing ) and some others ^^.

Firstly, my Brother(Total cocky JERK. But it's a brotherly thing)

He's a Libra, and I cant reveal his birthday to you people due to security reasons.
Let us see the definitions of the Libras :

-Traditional Libra Traits

Diplomatic and urbane
Romantic and charming
Easygoing and sociable
Idealistic and peaceable

On the dark side....

Indecisive and changeable
Gullible and easily influenced
Flirtatious and self-indulgent

Quotes from the text which are true bout my Bro :

-are naturally kind, very gentle (He USED to like that)

-they do not tolerate argument from anyone who challenges their opinions, for once they have reached a conclusion, its truth seems to them self-evident; and among their faults is an impatience of criticism and a greed for approval.

-They loathe cruelty, viciousness and vulgarity

-They have good perception and observation and their critical ability, with which they are able to view their own efforts as well as those of others, gives their work integrity.

-The negative Libran character may show frivolity, flirtatiousness and shallowness. It can be changeable and indecisive, impatient of routine, colorlessly conventional and timid, easygoing to the point of inertia

-yet Librans can shock everyone around them with sudden storms of rage.

-Their love of pleasure may lead them into extravagance; Libran men can degenerate into reckless gamblers (eg only)

-squander their wealth and talents in their overenthusiasm for causes which they espouse

-dislike coarse, dirty work

-others are extremely ambitious

-ome Librans are gifted in fashion designing or in devising new cosmetics; others may find success as artists, composers, critics, writers, interior decorators, welfare workers or valuers, and they have an ability in the management of all sorts of public entertainment.

Possible Health Concerns...

-weaknesses in the back

-They need to avoid overindulgence in food and especially drink

* LIKES The finer things in life
* conviviality

* DISLIKES Violence
* Injustice
* Brutishness
* Being a slave to fashion (100% accurate)

Go here to see the rest of the info

The 2 Weeks Countdown

Every beginning has an end, but this is not applicable to everything
*I like this phrase. Sounds holy.

= Give me 2 more weeks. I shall catch up with the past, the present and pursue the future. =

May everything goes well for all I know, regardless of the conflicts, misunderstandings, or any other negative incicents which dampen or hurt our relationships. Should God exist, bless you all.

Thanks for that "Jia You". It make a huge difference.

Well don't think much about the previous post I posted yesterday. Or the day before. Something bad happened, and I need to vent my anger somewhere, so I posted, because killing the Covenant armies in Halo is too repetive and lacked "kick", and my com is formatted clean of its Warcraft and Dota Gametypes( -_-" You should know who ). So here I was typing away in the wee hours of saturday morning, venting my anger with words. Man I felt better, although I didn't sleep well ( O lvls stress ).

My family has that Love-Hate relations. This is how we are, and we care and love each other deeply, although we dont act it out in front of each other cause we either dont think it's necessary or it's just that we dont know how to. ( The guys in this household are good examples. )

Anyway as I am typing this post now, time is slowly ticking away, and I have a SS paper due tomorrow morning at 10. About 12 hours more(T_T). When the big 'O's is around the corner, I did what I think some may consider nuts. I signed up more 3 more subjects ( E mths, A mths and Eng ) for tuition. Remember the 4hr Physics/Chem lessons ? My tutor is teaching all those. Man he's some super powerhouse. You gotta see to believe such man exist. Anyway he's so good that I hopped in last minute to "absorb" some of his vast knowledge, with E Mths paper 1 just 2 days away and paper 2 just next Friday, and Eng just next Wednesday. A mths, I'm not so sure but it's about 2 weeks later. Take it as an insurance, cause I'm not 100% certain that I can get A1 for them. Maybe just 60~75% sure. Anyway, this may be the LAST post I write in this few weeks due to INTENSIVE studies.

Things to remember :

-Populate the computer with the necessary data
-Prepare for 2 months worth of entertainment
-Get Fen Kai's Hp no. ( Not FK -__-" )
-Get Fen Kai to lend his Chung Cheng Year Book
-Find her pic, get relevant data if possible. I think I know which school she came from =P
-Learn new things and dare to dream big :
1) Learn the Japanese language, its writings if possible
2) Perfect the way of speaking English and Mandarin. Improve on understanding of the Chinese writings
3) Learn Hokkien and communicate with Ah Ma.
4) Electric Guitar XD !!!
5) Do those DJ stuffs. Techno, Trance, remixes etc
6) Organise Class activities

*- "Bounce with me, I feel the energy, Imagine a loss of weight is coming off of me.
Oh baby, dance with me and be my fantasy tonight =P"

*Part of lyrics from the Song : Bounce (DJ Manian Remix) from Speed Up 4, EQ music
*Relate to the bouncing part. The fantasy is irrelevant.

Just less than 1 hour ago, I got into this major fight with my

MAJOR RETARDED BROTHER WHO IS A SELF-CLAIMED COMPUTER EXPERT BUT DO NOT KNOW HOW TO SHUT DOWN THE COM PROPERLY, WHICH DIED TWICE DUE TO SUDDEN SHUTDOWN BY SWITCHING OF THE POWER, WHO'S VERY COCKY JUST BECAUSE HIS PW PRESENTATION WAS SHOWN TO THE WHOLE SCHOOL AND HAD A TEACHER TO PRAISE HIM TO THE SKIES.

over the computer. Again. The day before,this retard killed the com by abruptly cutting off its power by closing the power switch. Com can't start, the retard whines until I came home from a 4hr tuition session. I came home, attempted to save the com, but I knew my limit and decided to cease all "Saving" actions on the com until help arrives. Retard who thought he's a genius, went to PC recovery, and reformatted the whole hard disk. About 80 GB of information wiped cleaned. Thank God I backed up most files in my external Hard Disk, but then some of important information in the main Hard Disk was gone. Mr KuKu Head, with alot of confidence and pride, told our sis to convey this message to me :

"Go and tell GeGe, I repair the com liao =P."

I heard his voice. Darn cocky. I hate this attitude especially from a loser. He did not even know that he formatted the com. Til I bowed to him for being a retard.

After this whole retarded incident, I accepted the fact that the com was reformatted, and I set up a new system in the com. My dear brother had to install all those sh*t into the com again. ( Roughly 70% of the total main and external hard disk spaces were taken by his things. Among which 90% of them are junks, eg: Incompleted projects, incompleted downloads - Among which is a 5GB game but is unable to load )

I told him off, he shot back , I shot back. War begun. It was so intense that Mom had to come down to interupt. Got defeated badly, Mom went up and did her usual sh*t again. After this sh*t, Dad came down and told me off. F**K you @ssh**e. I dont get to see you more than 5hrs a week. You never spared any concern over my health. My Days. My Life. So who in the world told you to come and lecture me, although you are my Father in the name of Law.

I am emotionally dried up. I'm tired of this whole sh*t. I never had a good childhood, I never had anyone to depend on. No one. Not even my "Closest" friends understands my thoughts. It's not that they're incompetent or anything, but I'm more of a solo kia. I don't want them to know. After the 'O's, I'm gonna try to lead my OWN life. Do what I want. Get to find excuses to escape from this home. Home dont feel home anymore. My soul wander aimlessly in the dark, and amid the darkness, the moon shines lovely in the sky. Nevermind the light is reflected off the Moon's surface from the sun, the Moon does feel the void in my heart. But not all of it.

*Thinks of the song : MoonLight Shadow ( It's a great song )

I wept. For a few minutes. This has been years since I last cried. What is my purpose?

I look for this special person who can make me forget all my worries. To feel my heart flutter again. Get to feel what Love really is. Should I get to find her one day, I would also want to love her all my best. Be there for her. Live life to the fullest together.

This song by Cascada expresses what I think I think it is :

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.

- I feel lost. Dear God, I know this is very unlike me for I always contradict your existence, but let me score well for my "O"s to enter a good JC, and maybe, I'll get to see her, and also find out my purpose in life. I'll do my best in this remaining days towards the big "O"s, and to also always give all my best to everything which matters.

*I'm a freethinker.

Angels do exist. Dreams can become a reality

HOLY S**T, during this 2 months of "Intensive Studying CrashCourse", little did I expect to recieve such a BIG, HUMONGOUS, MEGA SHOCK during this period of time

*Refer to title above :

Angels do exist. Dreams can become a reality.

This 2 months had been topsy turvey for me, biological clock went hay-wire, day and night made no difference. I was exhasuted after the Prelims due to "Intensive Studying CrashCourse" ( I study better at LATE Night, so..you'll get the idea ), and surprisingly, the papers were kinda "easy".

And seriously, I didn't expect to get 14 points for my L1R5 ( THIS IS NOT THE BIG, HUMONGOUS, MEGA SHOCK ). This would mean that I could get to JC, and preferbly to Meridian JC, although the JC is rumored to have a horribly intensive school life there. If MAYBE I could get better grades, Victoria or Temesek JC? Hard to say lol.

Although I got 14 points for my Prelims, my parents, especially my dad totally freaked out due to several reasons :

"OMG !!!! You had got a whopping C6 for Pure Physics !!! OMG, OMG, OMG......."

"OMG !!!! You had got a whopping B3 for Pure Chemistry !!! OMG, OMG, OMG......."

"OMG !!!! You had got a whopping C6 for Combined Humanities ( Georg- Elective and SS ) !!! OMG, OMG, OMG......."

I admit I screwed this papers up, especially combined humanities, but for Physics ? NO WAY ! This subject was as good as gone once HE* walked into our class to "teach" Pure Physics. All our pleads came and went ( Due to the "softness" of the dear girls of the then 3E1, especially KKB or AKA happy Tree(as in 3) friends ),and we got stuck with HIM* for 2 whopping years.

Due to the above stated failures, I am oblinged to attend more "Intensive Studying CrashCourse" ( No No, this is not the THE BIG, HUMONGOUS, MEGA SHOCK I had ). But anyway, I have Physics and Chem intensive Group studies about 4hrs a day, almost everyday, another Physic Private tutor, Humanities intensive studies and not forgetting A maths Tuition.

Fine, I accepted what my dad had thrown at me, those tuitions and all that, and it's approximately...S$2450... Just this month only. HOLY ! ( But this is not THE BIG, HUMONGOUS, MEGA SHOCK ) Overtime, I get to accept this as I want better grades for my O levels, and I kinda like the tutors. =)

Ok, now here's THE BIG, HUMONGOUS, MEGA SHOCK which I got today. I was rushing for A maths tuition after my Physics/Chem studies at Marine Parade which ended at 5. I was late for A maths as it starts at 5. Ironic I know. Being pressed for time, I "ditched" my tuition buddies at their bus stop and made for mine, without saying a proper goodbye ( Sry people T-T ! ). I saw my bus and got on it. For those who's interested in the bus I took, it's 197, towards Bedok Bus Interchange. I boarded the bus, and made my way to an empty seat.

This is it. THE BIG, HUMONGOUS, MEGA SHOCK. I saw her. I don't know her name , but I SAW HER. There she saw seating on the seat just behind the exiting door, looking a little blur ( KAWAII. Kinda for her ). My heart raced.

She had a pony tail and a angelical face. She was dressed in a white school uniform, donning a red, scarf like tie which ran down to her chest. She literally sparkled in the sunlight. She...was a Princess, in fact, a Goddess to my eyes. She was refine. Mature. Not like those Ah Lians you'll see on streets. She had those beautiful eyes, although she wore glasses but hey, it makes her more beautiful ! And as a bonus, she has this petite figure which is stunning. Gosh, it was a rare ocassion in my life, to see such a rare beauty.

She was different from the other girls, perhaps unique ? A typical ah lian, who tucks her shirt out, wear "mini" skirt and wears a pair of nearly non-existence ankle length socks or maybe displays the bitchy/slutty side. She was the total opposite.

Plus the things i stated above, it made her a goddess. In my eyes. Usually girls would whip out their handphones or some other devices to occupy their brains during the bus trip, but for her, no! She just sat there and "enjoyed the scenary", which I don't expect many to do besides me. Although she look like she's a little lost while looking at the scenary, this is negligible.
I was like :

"HOLY S**T, she's like the girl of my dreams. No wait, She IS the girl of my dreams. OMG.... Is this an act of "God" ?"

Shocked, I was immobilized for a while, until I remembered that there were people behind me, so I went to take a seat. Again, being stunned by her beauty, I was unable to recover on time to seat beside her. Damn it, I've wasted a chance.

Anyway I sat at the back still astounded by what I saw, and I admit I did peep at her ocassionally. Before alighting, I peeped at her again. She was like looking at something (the ceiling perhaps? I'm not sure ) and when I just walked past her, she had to do this action, stretching or something similar and this resulted her chest ( MUST USE REFINED WORDS ! ) protruding, and I was just beside and facing her. Holy Crap I almost had a nosebleed.

But alas, good things never last long T-T, and we went our seperate ways. I thought that was it, and I really, really hope to see her again. Then bus no.38 went past me. And She was on the bus and I saw her. Wow~

Now I'm a believer =)
Perhaps if allowed, I would want to see her again =X

HE*, HIM* - Some Male Teacher in my school. Maybe I posted about him months ago

Hmm~ Regarding the last post bout' me being a vegetarian, after many enquires on this, I've decided to tell everyone the truth.

The truth is : I'm NOT a Vegetarian =X

My family consumes meat products, virtually the WHOLE Tan ( Mom's side ) and Neo ( Dad's side ) consumes meat products, and No~ We're not Buddhists. In fact, we're Free Thinkers. Ok maybe a little to the Taoist side ( Grandma factor - Dad's side )

Why do I NOT consume most meat products. The reason is simple : I DONT LIKE it. Don't ask me why, I just dont like it. I remembered during my younger days, like 3,4 years old, I did consume meat products. A box of McDonald chicken nuggets at the Bukit Timah McDonald restaurant, lobster meat during my Grandma's Birthday ( Mom's side ) . I dont remember why I just stop eating meat, I'm virtually freaked out by them, and just went eating veggies -.- ( Jia Zae ).

My Dad was really freaked out when I announced that I had jump to the life of a vegetarian, and forced me to eat meat, and I mean it. I was a little persistent, and resisted alot, but then for now, FOR NOW, I DO take in PROCESSED MEAT ( Phrase given by dear CK ). Processed meat as in Fish Fillets, Hams, Luncheon meat, etc...Anything that's reprocessed from meat to another form/shape other than it's original look. Anyway, I'm still not a big fan of these.

So if you guys are going to McDonald, Burger King, fear not -.-. I can eat most of the burgers there, and I love them.

- My mama once told me, that I look like a mini Buddha; Shaven head ( Near Botak ), consumes no meat products, very filial, and kind. Apparently that changed after some incidents occuring in my life, but I still have them inside me though, but I dont express out to you people =P.

- Was it a dream ? Illness which has caused me to become "Vegetarian" ? I'll need to remember bout' that -.-, but it's somehow connected to these 2.

- Going for really, really, really late dinner AKA supper. ( It's Dinner in fact -.- )

Wow I've not posted for such a long time. Even blogging seems alien to me now.

Well this past few months nothing much happened, exams, studies, gaming, you name it, nothing much.

One of the highlights was 5th of June til 8th of June, when I went on a School Field Trip to Cameron highland / Malacca for a 4 days/3 nights tour. Like always, my mom went nuts over the speed and method of me packing my luggage. Then came the day, 5th June, woke up early, played a little maple story ( I actually got a coolie map o.O ) and went to school. Problem is, we had to dress in PE attire when we depart for Malaysia, and I missed the last meeting ( Kee Chen...You didnt tell me -.-" ). I'm like some idiot dressed in some World cup 2004 shirt ( Official de ) carrying 2 big luggages. Haiz, bad start liao, then Ms Koh had to KaJiao me...

The trip to Cameron Highlands seemed short, maybe it's the "sitting in the bus" factor, or the "not looking ut the window" factor, or maybe I slept. For a very long long time. When we reach there though, it's like 7pm++, and to me that's no big deal
cause I just LOVE the night~It's cold~ it's cool~ ( minus the journey up the mountain -.- It hurts ).

Regarding over me being a Vegetarian, hmm it's hard to explain, I think I'll just post another time bout' this =P. The 1st night was a good one, me and Wes ( my room mate ) watched the World Cup on Rtv7 ? Dont remember the TV channel liao. The purpose of me going to Cameron highlands was to just relax and enjoy the climate, so what tours we did there, was kinda blurry to me, plus I had'nt have a good night sleep that time -.- ( World Cup plus the GF factor ).

The 2nd and 3rd night was kinda horrendous, Wes's GF ( Assumed, judging from how they behave towards each other ) came over to OUR room. Yesh, Gals are not allowed to come to our room, but hey, who listens ? Anyway they played, not hanky panky mind you, just cards and some other stuffs til 5++ -.-, and we need to wake up by 6~7+ -.-. I had to wake Wes up nia, and we're late often -.-".

On the 3rd day, we missed the Mega mall Shopping Trip T.T, I wanted to shop for Xbox goodies and books so badly... but hey, we DID went to Mahkota shopping complex on the last day to shop, thought this's the 3rd time I've been there this past 4 years... During the short 1 hr trip, I just bought a Xbox 360 magazine ( SGD$20 T.T ) and rumbled in the arcade there, but alas, it was time to go.

Now, I shall post one of the most disappointing thing i saw : Some malay cleaner, around the age of 40+, went to KiSiao this young kid whom I believe was below 10. That kid was ahem~ Doing his business, then that bloody cleaner ( that Old bastard ) forced open the toilet door, stared at that kid, laughed hysterically and closed the toilet door back. And he continued, continued, even when the kid cried, that old cock continued his disgusting behaviour. Bloody disgusting, even more disgusting than my younger brother of mine... I wanted to help, but my friends dragged me away..

It's not to insult Malaysians or Malays though, but that guy seriously had some issues to settle.

When I came back to S'pore, I was exhausted from talking in the bus in the darkness for hours and hours, and from chewing gums non-stop, I exhausted my jaw muscles -.-, and eating became a chore. Long trip, but good though.

I'll continue maybe later cause I've to go for tuition -.-.

Once again I fear my memory is starting to fail me. I had actually forgotten to blog about my family getting a new car =X.

No, it's not that we're rich, it just that our old car, Nissan Cefiro ( I think it's spelt like this ) was about 5 years old. High time to change, for the Singapore Government have this "scheme", trade in your car within the next 5 years of purchase and you're entitled with some cash rebate. Common sense tells you that you'll be trading your old car for a newer, more environmental friendly and gorgeously looking car. It's a good thing, right ?

Anyway the model of the new car is Toyata's Estima, and it's a family carriage type car, which my family is so obsessed about. It'll be serving us, from today onwards, while Nissan Cefiro, was decommission with effect of yesterday. RIP Cefiro~.

- Knowing a new friend is a good thing. Losing an old friend is a bad thing. Having a Idiotic brother who knows no limit of acting like a loser ( Rephrase nicely liao ), is seriously a pain in the neck. ( Rephrase nicely also )

How could I forget such a important event ?! I actually forgot to blog my visit to the Guild House at Suntec for a Xbox 360 session.

Ok on 13th March 2006, due to the fact that I woke up darn early to play Maple Story ( 6.55am, Morning call by my friend ), and later actually went for a morning jog. Rare huh ? Anyway I was so exhausted that around 12~1pm, I went for a short nap. Not that actually short, but I slept til 4.45pm. And the Xbox 360 session starts at 6pm sharp, and I've not even prepared yet. Rushing a little~ I left home by 5.15pm, but everytime after a nap, I'll just feel light headed, oblivious to many things around me. Anyway when I reached there, it's around 6~6.10pm. Not so bad, right ?

Upon reaching the Guild House, I was like "WOAH". Darn classy interior design. I've not been to this kind of place since my visit to the Raffles City Conventional Room last year. It was kinda disappointing though, it was just a room, with many Xbox 360 consoles placed all around the room, with game samples too. Met some XBL friends, but I was too busy playing PDZ ( Perfect Dark Zero ) to go fool around with them. 2 hours flew past quickly, and I had to go home T.T. PDZ was so cool~ and the main character, Joanna Dark was so gorgeous, sexy~. Anyway it was 8pm+ when I decided to go home, and I didn't join my XBL friends for dinner. You can call me "spoilsport", but I only brought like $4 with me, and those guys are darn rich.

"We're going to Kenny Rodgers !"

If you guys don't know what Kenny Rodgers is, it's a restaurant. Something like those cowboy operated ones. My $4 there can't even buy me a main course meal =.=|.
Nothing much here. but I managed to get some freebies, a Kasumi miniture figurine (^^) and a PDZ comic. I'm so gonna get a Xbox 360 at the end of the year.

Yesterday was my NE trip, and it went well. Ok, at least I think it went ok.

I remember, it was early and quiet Tuesday morning, around 6~7am. Anyway same old procedure, wash up, dress up and so on. Went to school.

The class of 4E1 went to the Chinese Heritage Centre located in Chinatown, and opens at 9am. Sharp. Like any other musuem, it showcases alot of of old artifacts and tells the stories of the Good Old Days~. Now's this is the part which seriously pisses me off. It obviously stated No Photography is allowed. But to the class of 4E1 ( Besides me, I'm a good boy ), this rule was absurd. I know, rules are meant to be broken, but we have nothing against the Heritage centre, why have to make life so hard ?

If these people just take some photos secretly, I'm cool with that. But no~ They have to take more, and with flash too. Idiotic behaviour, and worse, don't know how to conceal their actions. And some of them, although "behaves" well in school, once outside of school, it's the total opposite. I'll remember this plump girl from my class, behaves very well in front of the teachers. But at the heritage centre, I calmly told her to switch off flash, instead of stop taking photos. But guess what ? She had to scold me back, and no one can do that unless I say so. So she's screwed.

After this we went to the Sultan mosque located at Kampung Glam, and this is not the first time I've been to this mosque. Let me think, It should be my thrid visit here. But this is the first time, I've heard and eaten the $1.40 Nasi Lemak. But hey, it's not exactly value for money, cause besides the coconut rice and ikan bilis, there's only the egg and fried fish. This is also where Hawa lost her wallet, and I heard she lost over a hundred dollars. Bless her.

Later we went to a Sikh temple, located around the Book Keng MRT station, purple line. Being at the back of the crowd, I didn't actually catch what the guide was saying. Basically, the Singhs, the people who wear turbans on their heads, practises this religion. There's also the 5K, the Gurus and more. The temple also had this humongous hall, covered with a layer of very, very comfortable carpet like material ( It's very furry de, mao mao de XD. Xn don't be jealous. ) and there's a person, who's sitting behind something which resembles the area where the coffin is placed in a chinese funeral ( No Offence, but it just looks like one ). He was reading this book , a holy one in fact, similar to the bible ? I also managed to sample a vegetarian food, something brownish/orangy and taste like some paste.

Lastly we arrived at the infamous Tua Bei Kong temple in Loyang. Kinda weird though, just beside it, and I do mean it ( Just think of Me standing beside you looking at the computer screen, the temples are that close alright ). Beautiful environment, the sea is so blue, air so fresh, and carries the smell of the ocean. I took some photos, and maybe I'll post it up somedays.

I was'nt that attentive, and worse, I have a holiday project based on this trip.

- A simple school trip can reveal one's own personality. And others too. Some girls are just simply stunning XD

Last week had to be one of the better weeks I had this month. From Wednesday til Friday, I was busy, very busy with NE things to do, like preparing a speech for 27 visitors ( =X ) and re-decorating the NE corner, etc. Re-decorating the NE corner was a total pain in the neck, for the corner and its exhibit had not been clean for 5 whole years... Can ya imagine how dirty it was when we NE ambassadors cleaned it ?

Anyway I don't wanna relive the whole yucky experience, but it was the whole presentation that I was looking for. Well I don't really get it though, on one hand. I like to be a Joker, socialize and more. The other hand, quiet, relax, or something like Mr. Anti-Social. But that day I was like Mr.Socialable. I actually enjoyed presenting the NE garden. And I think I did ok.( In my school, we have the NE corner and garden. And I kinda lied. I didn't present the WHOLE NE garden. I just did the satay and milk man )

I enjoyed the stress to present well in front of the principals. I enjoyed just fooling around with the other NE ambassadors ( I don't really flirt. I think =X ). I enjoyed staying in school til 6~7pm+ ( This is new..And weird ). Finally, I enjoyed the night. Her calmness, erieeness. Her beauty, mysteriousness, for some weird reason just attracts me strongly. Ah yes, not forgetting the beautiful lights from our houses and the B-E-A-U-T-Y of Techno, Trance, Remixes or whatever U would say under the stars =D.

Oh yeah, regarding the presentation on Friday. It was totally unplanned and was obviously a last minute arrangement, and I was a innocent bystander who's going home after a photography lesson when Dear Mr Wei Ming dragged me out for a presentaion similar to that on Thursday morning,to NE Co-ordinnators from different schools. And again. I BELIEVED I did ok.

-How in the world did X.J escaped from Wei Ming's "evil clutches' ?

Well I haven't been posting in a while, so I'm kinda lost with blogging lol.

This week was almost too good to be true. Tuesday, me and some other friends are schedued for Taekwando lessons at around 3.30pm, and this tuesday, or yesterday, someone announced that Taekwando lessons were cancelled. This meant that I had the whole afternoon free. Perfect to play com and study later at night =D. But ok~ It's too good to be true, Ms Koh last minute, and I really do mean LAST MINUTE ( How about telling you just before you're going home ?) to stay back, help out at the NE corner and garden, to prepare them for the 27 guests we're gonna receive tomorrow at around 8am+. And lalala~ I stayed til 7pm+ before I went home.( I finished work at around 5pm+, but I decided to play badminton with the other NE Ambassadors =X )

Then today was no exception. I thought I could leave for home early! But alas, Ms Koh told em to help out again, and this time I had to present in front of the guests. All 27 of them =X. Well the rehearsal went kinda smoothly, but I'm scared T.T~ Wish me luck then =/

-Walking with Monsters : LIfe before Dinosaurs, IS AWESOME O.O~~

The Approaching Storm :

WARNING : VIRTUALLY OF THIS ENTRY EMITS NEGETIVE AURA~ READ AT OWN RISK

This week didn't started off that well, first thing in the morning, I was given "the look"( Disgusted; Pissed off; Grudgey; "Buay Song" )by our very own dear Mr Phoa, our "beloved" Physics and also form teacher of my class 4E1. I think this happened because of some incidents which happened last week during my SS common test. Let's be nice people ok ? So I wont get into so much on critising this guy. I'll make it short and simple, yet not abusive at all; His way of teaching is horrible, awfully weird behaviour and "biased towards girls" attitude, finally not forgetting his DISTINCTIVE look( Note that this is not to compliment on his looks, it's totally opposite ). Anyway some bad blood occured between us both and I wont get into that cause I'll get violent lol.

Then after that, Mr dear Chem teacher, Mr Wee had to try to make some joke out of my sad knowledge on Chemistry. Even today during his lesson, he tried to do the same again. Mr Wee, this is not FUNNY ?!

Then again, I cannot deny it's presence anymore. It seems that my past is fast catching up to me, and the Other Side, is starting appear. The old me, for some weird reasons, is coming back. Yes, although it had been with me for this past few years, I managed to keep it under control. Now, I don't think I can do it anymore. I just cannot control it...My whole existence as Jack, is starting to change, yet again.

Ps : Xue Ni, sorry for not lending you a listening ear yesterday. I was not myself. =/

Last week was some scary, horribly busy crap. I actually have to stay back til 6~7pm+ for 5 whole days, which is about... A school week~ !

People~I...I've something to confess~...

I'm a NE ambassador. It's not like some godly position, and I became one by asking this question which I'll never ever forget :

" Erm, Ms Koh, what does a NE ambassador do ?"

After this, I was called up, sent for a interview which I think I seriously screwed up and WALLA~Became a NE ambassador.

Being a NE ambassador isn't that crappy, cause I get to see many things you guys aren't able to see everyday. Like a Catholic Church ( with presence of gorgeous Gothic architecture and a stunningly peaceful ambience ), a Crocodile farm ( It should be a Crocodile Farm "Tourist Centre", oh well~ ) in the Singapore and finally, a Japanese cemetry in the middle of a private housing estate. O.o ! ( Read the post on Nov 07, 2005 to know more ). Anyway the Japanese cemetry is not mentioned inside, so I'll just say it's has a beautiful scenery and nice ambience, kinda the exact opposite you'll expect from a cemetry.

Back to the topic, the NE ambassadors were required to make some "notice boards" based on your selected traditional games ( I chose Hopscotch =D ). So it happened to occur during a test week, and blah blah~ Busy with school work, computer gaming and studying, I, being the IC of the group dragged the finishing of the board til Friday. When we actually finished it, the board was just rejected mercilessly for being ugly ( Teacher and students have different views on Art appreciations ) and we were forced to redo it. I had a photography course til 4pm+, and the other group members, Annabelle, Jaslene and Xue Juan ( all girls again -.-" ) were BUSY ! XJ ( Xue Juan ) went home after the course, Jaslene, dont know where the heck she had gone to, and Annabelle had CCA... So with some kind souls, plus a really annoyed teacher-in-charge, I managed to finish the board ( Totally reformatted, repaired, and reloaded XD ) by 6pm+. The board, was totally different from the old one.

The old one had glitters peeling off, cause it just wont stick on plastic, and some parts of it just looked stupid.

The new board looked a little better, except the "Hopscotch" writting appeared to be overpainted, thus crappy.

So finishing this, We're prepared for that Sunday, 12 Feb or Zheng Yue Shi Wu, the last day of CNY, or the chinese Valentine's day. This is kinda long, so let me summarise it. Me went to school, bus hired to send us there. Reached Hougang Mall by 4pm, set up booth by 5pm. By then everyone was "Gan Chiong", and Ms Koh was seriously PISSED off, cause the crowd was coming in fast. I was doing the markings for the Hopscotch when Ms Koh told me that she brought canvas for us for the diagrams. This was when, I noticed that the

Hopscotch diagrams were done already ( -.- ) by another batch of students who graduated from school already.

Saved us tons of time, by then the crowd just came in. My booth, especially my Hopscotch area were overswarmed with kids from 5pm~8pm+ and I barely had dinner..the others did a pretty good job, but I must say, I worked the hardest (^^ ). Went home at 9~10pm+, and it was too late to do homework, so I rushed the night doing homeworks =.=". That's all for now~ I'll continue tomorrow, cause Mom's nagging about over-usage of the computer -.-.