Well the desire for a well-paying, flexible holiday job has struck me again. And this time, it sucks.
Ok, I only had one working experience, which is for a family friend. I did admin work, delivery, etc. All for $3 per hour. I won't say it's measly, but I suffered backache from sitting for long hours (Ironic huh?), stiff neck (Made worse with the then Maple Addiction) and a tweaked body clock. It just became like a wake up, wash and eat, go to work, eat lunch, work, go home and have dinner, sleep kind of daily routine. It's sad. But working there for 2 months, I managed to save up to $700+ for a Xbox. It was 2, fast approaching 3 years ago. I blew my salary on the game system and games.
So now with Xbox360 out, PS3 and Wii fast approaching release date (I lost track of time. Please correct me if I'm wrong), Halo-ism and for a very personal reason, I've decided to get a job. Oh, plus I'm rotting at home, particullarly at a rapid rate due to burning out after the 'O's. This has gone so bad that I find it hard to think, and I discovered after I can't do simple, mental calculations.
Well I won't say I'm very hardworking in job finding, but I'm starting to feel stressed for my failure to secure a job (I dont want to do office/admin again). Erm, I have not did any enquires for any part time job, but when I look at The Straits Times : Classified to find a job, all I see is random data spewed all over the page. I can't find any relevant data, like what kind of job it is, how it pays, working hours and so on. Having worked once at a advertising company (My only time working), I DO know that you have to pay more to have a larger space to advertise on the Classified (I think it charges for the by rows and columns used to advertise). But please at least add some relevant data.
The internet was also kinda useless, I can't find anything good out of it. I was also so close to getting a spot at Singapore Discovery Centre (Friend's recommendation) but missed it by a nose as some guy applied for it before me. I'm starting to like :" Holy? How come my friends can get jobs easily while I have to look so hard?"
Well I've heard from younger friends that they get jobs by just walking around, asking the operation managers. So if that's the case for my friends, that I lose out already. I don't go out often due to lack of $$$, and parental stress and the stress of need to dress well. They seem to find jobs which I don't even see in the Classified. Like my cousin working in the departure hall in Changi Airport (WAH!), a classmate working at Swensen's.
My dad offered me a job to his workshop. Located as tuas, 8 hrs daily, 6 days week and $4 per hour. Not the best, but I think I have no choice but to take it. But it seems that he's joking/not sincere bout' this, cause I can sense this in many ways. Firstly, there's this "haha" or joking tone when he told me the offer. Secondly, when it comes to business/work he's damn serious. Not that time. Thirdly, he "attempted" to help me spot for jobs from the Classified. All he did was to see my choices, strike them off totally and say bullshits like hmm, no good. But anyway this act indicates that he didn't expect me to take his offer. Forthly, after being pressured by me, he said he would ask his brother (The Boss of the company) to confirm.
This sucks. And I got pissed that I used the net to find a job, to no success (Written somewhere above), and mom's nagging go up and sleep~. Anyway I don't give a damn cause my whole day was totally trashed. Apart from listening to some beautiful, melodious Japanese anime music, checking out game review websites for the lastest info on Xbox360, its games and Nitendo's Wii, the rest of the day practically was trash. Boring, noisy and troubled.
Well let's hope that some mircale will appear. I don't want to be stuck in this home.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Shanghai Trip - Day 4
Well I'm gonna skip the morning, washing, eating part and jump straight to the highlights.
My dad decided on not going to Bauma 06 that Friday to relax and sight-see. Well he just wanted to act as a tour guide, cause he's been there once. So the thrio ( Plus Uncle Sim) walked on foot to the Shanghai coast (上海滩 from what my dad says), which is very, very long. Maybe as long as Orchard road, I'm not too sure of that. Not a big fan of shopping. My dad wanted to bring me to a whatever that name tunnel for the
Ahem. As I was saying, we went into the tunnel. I was greeted by this transportation thingy (I dont know how to name it), it looked like the tram which moves between Terminal 1 and 2 of Changi Airport, or that thing which you ride underwater in the mission in Halo 2 to kill the Prophet of Regret. Except smaller. So I was awed by this, but the lack of seats in it disappointed me. Only 3 seats ? There were like 7 people in it! That thing does not go underwater, but instead moves through a tunnel under the HuangPu River. There's sazzy, mind bloggling light effect. I didnt really take note of it cause I've seen this alot doing Techno music. So we got to the other side of the river, and I forgot it's the North, South, East or West of it. Anyway It looked very different from where the hotel is located.
My dad brought us to 东方明珠, sorry for the lack of translation cause I dont know its english name. Anyway we went up this tower, which I heard is used for broadcasting TV/Radio signals. So we went in, took a elevator up(Short queue surprisingly). We're bout 200+m up and the view was breath-taking. I got to see almost the whole city and partially, the HuangPu River. It's bigger than Singapore, I believe. So after the viewing, we're decided to move higher. Well, we needed to pay again to go up =.=. The ticket which my dad bought only covered the transportation fee + visual effects in the tunnel, the Marine Aquarium (AKA underwater world) and that floor of 东方明珠. Another RMB150! But anyway that's not all. We paid, and still needed to queue to more up =.= =.= =.=
The queueing process was 30 mins long. And what seriously pissed me off was, we're going up in a lift? How is it going to transport the masses up and down effectively? It's the ONLY lift going up and down the tower. So when we managed to go up, I kinda regretted my decision. Firstly, it's smaller in area compared to that 200+m floor. Secondly, the view is almost the same. Thirdly, we needed to queue up just to go down =.= =.= =.=
Queued for 15mins before going down that same elevator we took to go up. After that, we required to queue for another 20mins JUST to reach the lobby. I was like =.= =.= =.= during the whole time waiting to go down. So apart from being squeezed like sardines in a can when in the elevator and the bloody queueing process. The whole experience is ok.
We had lunch at 东方明珠's lobby. There was this cafe/shop named Coffee Tower, and it looked ridiculously like Coffee Bean/StarBucks. The only difference is the waiter/waitress wear orange. So anyway we ate lunch here, and boy, the food's good! I can taste that it's microwave food, but still it taste great. I enjoyed that Gratin.
Next stop, the Marine Aquarium, aka Underwater World. Thank God there's no crowds inside the structure, and best of all, no queueing! The exihibits there were very different from those you'll find in the Singapore's Underwater World. Lots and lots of native species, and some really scary ones too :
Forgot the name, but it's a big salamander found in a huge river (Yellow river?)
Tiger Shark. You'll get the idea
The slightly more cute ones:
There's a great exhibition bout Sharks there too! And save the sharks! They're not mindless man-eater, but beautiful yet dangerous animals. Dont support Shark Fin Soup or any other Shark based products.
The visit to the Aquarium was enjoyable, but I had no time to shop =.= for CDs. It's around 5.15pm when we left, and man, it's like 9pm out there. So dark. As we only extended our hotel stay for 1/2 a day, which was til 6pm. So we got onto a taxi and rushed down there. It has slightly pass 6pm, and it's not even 6.10pm yet but we're needed to pay for a whole day for the hotel room, bout' 140RMB? I dont recall the price but it's over 100RMB allright. So dragging our luggages out disgruntingly, we went to a nearby, small restaurant for dinner. After dinner, we took a taxi and left for Shanghai International Airport (HuangPu), which was over a hour long ride. The whole trip cost bout' 120~160RMB, which is considered cheap for the distance covered.
The trip home was a little unexpected for me. I saw a MASSIVE group of Henderson Secondary School students, and both genders wore suits. The girls look kinda weird o.O. There're lots of other people too, and wow, I wasn't the only teen there. You could easily pluck them out. So anyway, did those procedures, and passed customs. The shops were just linear in shape, so to go from one end to another took a long time. When my dad, uncle Sim and with some friends whom they just met, went for a snack at a nearby cafe. I took this opportunity to look for a book/CD shop. To my great surprise, there's actually one there. Shocked but happy, I rushed back to the cafe for some cash to buy some CDs/books. But to my GREAT disappointment, the shop was bout' to close when I just reached there. Bad timing, but why close at 10.30pm? I thought they close at 12am ?
So due this stupid incident, it ruined my day. I had that "Hey! F**K off" face the whole trip back to Sinagpore. Even that plane trip didn't bother me much. It took me 8 songs just to cool down, bout' 40 mins long. A very long time based on my standard.
So nothing much happened on the plane, so took a short nap. Reached S'pore at bout' 6am, and when to Burger King for a short breakfast. Long queues at 6am? You gotta be kidding me! It took me 15mins just to order my breakfast.
Nothing much left, this just sums up what I remember from the trip to Shanghai. Went home, played my ever lovely com from 7am til 12pm, that's when I slept. Til 9pm+.
My dad decided on not going to Bauma 06 that Friday to relax and sight-see. Well he just wanted to act as a tour guide, cause he's been there once. So the thrio ( Plus Uncle Sim) walked on foot to the Shanghai coast (上海滩 from what my dad says), which is very, very long. Maybe as long as Orchard road, I'm not too sure of that. Not a big fan of shopping. My dad wanted to bring me to a whatever that name tunnel for the
Ahem. As I was saying, we went into the tunnel. I was greeted by this transportation thingy (I dont know how to name it), it looked like the tram which moves between Terminal 1 and 2 of Changi Airport, or that thing which you ride underwater in the mission in Halo 2 to kill the Prophet of Regret. Except smaller. So I was awed by this, but the lack of seats in it disappointed me. Only 3 seats ? There were like 7 people in it! That thing does not go underwater, but instead moves through a tunnel under the HuangPu River. There's sazzy, mind bloggling light effect. I didnt really take note of it cause I've seen this alot doing Techno music. So we got to the other side of the river, and I forgot it's the North, South, East or West of it. Anyway It looked very different from where the hotel is located.
My dad brought us to 东方明珠, sorry for the lack of translation cause I dont know its english name. Anyway we went up this tower, which I heard is used for broadcasting TV/Radio signals. So we went in, took a elevator up(Short queue surprisingly). We're bout 200+m up and the view was breath-taking. I got to see almost the whole city and partially, the HuangPu River. It's bigger than Singapore, I believe. So after the viewing, we're decided to move higher. Well, we needed to pay again to go up =.=. The ticket which my dad bought only covered the transportation fee + visual effects in the tunnel, the Marine Aquarium (AKA underwater world) and that floor of 东方明珠. Another RMB150! But anyway that's not all. We paid, and still needed to queue to more up =.= =.= =.=
The queueing process was 30 mins long. And what seriously pissed me off was, we're going up in a lift? How is it going to transport the masses up and down effectively? It's the ONLY lift going up and down the tower. So when we managed to go up, I kinda regretted my decision. Firstly, it's smaller in area compared to that 200+m floor. Secondly, the view is almost the same. Thirdly, we needed to queue up just to go down =.= =.= =.=
Queued for 15mins before going down that same elevator we took to go up. After that, we required to queue for another 20mins JUST to reach the lobby. I was like =.= =.= =.= during the whole time waiting to go down. So apart from being squeezed like sardines in a can when in the elevator and the bloody queueing process. The whole experience is ok.
We had lunch at 东方明珠's lobby. There was this cafe/shop named Coffee Tower, and it looked ridiculously like Coffee Bean/StarBucks. The only difference is the waiter/waitress wear orange. So anyway we ate lunch here, and boy, the food's good! I can taste that it's microwave food, but still it taste great. I enjoyed that Gratin.
Next stop, the Marine Aquarium, aka Underwater World. Thank God there's no crowds inside the structure, and best of all, no queueing! The exihibits there were very different from those you'll find in the Singapore's Underwater World. Lots and lots of native species, and some really scary ones too :
Forgot the name, but it's a big salamander found in a huge river (Yellow river?)
Tiger Shark. You'll get the idea
The slightly more cute ones:
There's a great exhibition bout Sharks there too! And save the sharks! They're not mindless man-eater, but beautiful yet dangerous animals. Dont support Shark Fin Soup or any other Shark based products.
The visit to the Aquarium was enjoyable, but I had no time to shop =.= for CDs. It's around 5.15pm when we left, and man, it's like 9pm out there. So dark. As we only extended our hotel stay for 1/2 a day, which was til 6pm. So we got onto a taxi and rushed down there. It has slightly pass 6pm, and it's not even 6.10pm yet but we're needed to pay for a whole day for the hotel room, bout' 140RMB? I dont recall the price but it's over 100RMB allright. So dragging our luggages out disgruntingly, we went to a nearby, small restaurant for dinner. After dinner, we took a taxi and left for Shanghai International Airport (HuangPu), which was over a hour long ride. The whole trip cost bout' 120~160RMB, which is considered cheap for the distance covered.
The trip home was a little unexpected for me. I saw a MASSIVE group of Henderson Secondary School students, and both genders wore suits. The girls look kinda weird o.O. There're lots of other people too, and wow, I wasn't the only teen there. You could easily pluck them out. So anyway, did those procedures, and passed customs. The shops were just linear in shape, so to go from one end to another took a long time. When my dad, uncle Sim and with some friends whom they just met, went for a snack at a nearby cafe. I took this opportunity to look for a book/CD shop. To my great surprise, there's actually one there. Shocked but happy, I rushed back to the cafe for some cash to buy some CDs/books. But to my GREAT disappointment, the shop was bout' to close when I just reached there. Bad timing, but why close at 10.30pm? I thought they close at 12am ?
So due this stupid incident, it ruined my day. I had that "Hey! F**K off" face the whole trip back to Sinagpore. Even that plane trip didn't bother me much. It took me 8 songs just to cool down, bout' 40 mins long. A very long time based on my standard.
So nothing much happened on the plane, so took a short nap. Reached S'pore at bout' 6am, and when to Burger King for a short breakfast. Long queues at 6am? You gotta be kidding me! It took me 15mins just to order my breakfast.
Nothing much left, this just sums up what I remember from the trip to Shanghai. Went home, played my ever lovely com from 7am til 12pm, that's when I slept. Til 9pm+.
Monday, November 27, 2006
Shanghai Trip - Day 3
Today I woke up earlier at bout' 8am and proceeded to the cafe or Coffee Shop for breakfast. A normal, quiet breakfast until some China due just sat down on my table to eat. I was like WTF?, and told him that the other 2 seats (there were 4) were taken. No obvious reply, and he just continued eating. Yes, I can see that most tables were taken, and I'm just a 16 year old kid, so it's like taking candy from a baby. Even so, manners please hor uncle.
Regarding the last post bout the JC admission thingy, my dad rushed me to the business center but it was closed. So we went to a nearby LAN shop located at that famous shopping district seen in the Day 1 post. The fee was cheap. Only 3 RMB per hour, or SGD$ 0.60 per hour. It was quite quiet there for it's morning. Only bout' 3~6 other computers were taken. I went to see the necessary things needed for the admission exercise etc, and the weird thing is, the chinese guy beside me is watching his porn collection. Well girls in scantily clothes/bikinis and some were totally nude. Yep, it's porn alright.
Me, dad and uncle Sim went to Bauma 06 after that, and it's more enjoyable. Due to no bloody tiring plane trip, dragging of a few kilos of luggage and Booth Babes. Yes you heard me correctly. Booth babes. I was shocked to even see them in such exhibitions in the first place.
During lunch, me and dad went to The Coffee Beanery (It ain't no Coffee Bean, and yes that's the cafe's name). Queuing took bout' 20 minutes, and we're in luck to find a table less than 10 minutes there amongst the crowd. I ordered a Supreme pizza for me, Spaghetti for dad and a Expresso coffee. It was 15RMB (SGD$3) for a cup, and the cup was only this big:
Small, but it has KICK! Slight similar effect to Vodka.
Well, I made an arrangement for those who I smsed, called or specifically contacted via other sources to log in to MSN messenger around 7pm+. Well we're stuck outside for 2hrs+, no thanks to long queues, people who shamlessly stole our cabs (KSed) and to those taxi drivers wanting to extort $$$ from passengers (霸王车). I recalled one policeman for doing these weird actions. He did a dramatic "To hell with those 霸王车, I shall lead you all to the main road where there's a abundance of cabs." speech in his superb chinese accent. Sounded patriotic. Again, our cabs got stolen (KSed) by others, and took us quite a while to get a cab. Worse, it was raining. After hopping onto a cab, we're faced with the problem of a MASSIVE TRAFFIC JAM. A short drive of less than 30km to the hotel took us an hour.
I reached the hotel at 8pm, and late for the MSN appointment. Called Mau to log in, and he did! I multi tasked between talking to CK, Yudha who both logged in later and with Mau, and the PAE(JCs) admission. My dad dislike the idea of going to the LAN shop again due to the pornography the guy beside me was viewing. So I went to the business center to use it's computer. It's bout' SGD$4 per 15 mins. Shocking isn't it?
This is the com:
All Hail Mau! Saved my ass. Twice. Firstly for logging immedialately when I needed him most. Secondly, for spotting my mistake of entering Anderson JC as my 2nd choice instead of Tampines JC. Heng!
A really late dinner due to the jam and PAE admission. Bout' 5 mins to 10pm. Ate alot to celebrate the completion of my PAE admission before the deadline, and there's lots of left over pizza o.O
Regarding the last post bout the JC admission thingy, my dad rushed me to the business center but it was closed. So we went to a nearby LAN shop located at that famous shopping district seen in the Day 1 post. The fee was cheap. Only 3 RMB per hour, or SGD$ 0.60 per hour. It was quite quiet there for it's morning. Only bout' 3~6 other computers were taken. I went to see the necessary things needed for the admission exercise etc, and the weird thing is, the chinese guy beside me is watching his porn collection. Well girls in scantily clothes/bikinis and some were totally nude. Yep, it's porn alright.
Me, dad and uncle Sim went to Bauma 06 after that, and it's more enjoyable. Due to no bloody tiring plane trip, dragging of a few kilos of luggage and Booth Babes. Yes you heard me correctly. Booth babes. I was shocked to even see them in such exhibitions in the first place.
During lunch, me and dad went to The Coffee Beanery (It ain't no Coffee Bean, and yes that's the cafe's name). Queuing took bout' 20 minutes, and we're in luck to find a table less than 10 minutes there amongst the crowd. I ordered a Supreme pizza for me, Spaghetti for dad and a Expresso coffee. It was 15RMB (SGD$3) for a cup, and the cup was only this big:
Small, but it has KICK! Slight similar effect to Vodka.
Well, I made an arrangement for those who I smsed, called or specifically contacted via other sources to log in to MSN messenger around 7pm+. Well we're stuck outside for 2hrs+, no thanks to long queues, people who shamlessly stole our cabs (KSed) and to those taxi drivers wanting to extort $$$ from passengers (霸王车). I recalled one policeman for doing these weird actions. He did a dramatic "To hell with those 霸王车, I shall lead you all to the main road where there's a abundance of cabs." speech in his superb chinese accent. Sounded patriotic. Again, our cabs got stolen (KSed) by others, and took us quite a while to get a cab. Worse, it was raining. After hopping onto a cab, we're faced with the problem of a MASSIVE TRAFFIC JAM. A short drive of less than 30km to the hotel took us an hour.
I reached the hotel at 8pm, and late for the MSN appointment. Called Mau to log in, and he did! I multi tasked between talking to CK, Yudha who both logged in later and with Mau, and the PAE(JCs) admission. My dad dislike the idea of going to the LAN shop again due to the pornography the guy beside me was viewing. So I went to the business center to use it's computer. It's bout' SGD$4 per 15 mins. Shocking isn't it?
This is the com:
All Hail Mau! Saved my ass. Twice. Firstly for logging immedialately when I needed him most. Secondly, for spotting my mistake of entering Anderson JC as my 2nd choice instead of Tampines JC. Heng!
A really late dinner due to the jam and PAE admission. Bout' 5 mins to 10pm. Ate alot to celebrate the completion of my PAE admission before the deadline, and there's lots of left over pizza o.O
Shanghai Trip - Day 2
I woke up around 9am+, and it's considered late cause the cafe (or Coffe Shop cause they named it that way) stops serving breakfast at 9.45am. Nagged out out bed (it sucks big time, and there's a stranger to see it all), I changed, washed and went for breakfast. A normal breakfast, and left for the exhibition around 10+am.
This time, I'm refreshed and awake, although not 100%. Me and my dad scanned halls E1 and E4 thoroughtly, and only E2 and E3 are left. Firstly, it rained/drizzled the whole day, and it was HORRIBLY cold. And yes, it felt good. Secondly, there are just too many people around. Toilet visit was long and horrible, and people staring at each other peeing. Lunch was worse. There were bout' 3 dining areas there only, and all were fully occupied. So I pulled my dad to the McDonald area where the queue was shorter. A 25 minutes queue, and the food was cold when it arrived. Still edible, and the drink was a blue solution (Imagine Aqueous Blue Copper Sulpahte solution) with a chewing gum/mint/coke flavour. Taste kinda ok, and my dad said it tasted great. Bleh. Oh yeah, litters dominated the whole area. Floor, tables, chairs. They're found everywhere, just like the zombies in horror movies.
The exhibition was what I expected, products, business contacts etc. Met alot of my dad's business friends, and one of them, Terence brought us around Shanghai. Afterall he's familiar with the surrounding there. We went to 人民大道 in search for CDs, and to my surprise, there's not a single CD shop to be found everywhere. Due to the drizzling, those CD stalls (Mobile ones I heard) are nowhere to be seen. Sad, cause the CDs are only RMB 25, bout' SGD$5. Another downside is that beggars beg hard for cash. They can follow you down the streets asking for $$$, and what's even more ironic is that they're dressed in nicer and better jackets than mine.
Returning to the hotel disappointed, I just slacked around lor. And to my horror, I needed to hand in the application form thingy regarding my choice of JCs by Friday 24/11 by 4pm. Well the horrible part is I'm stuck in China til Fri 12am, and I didn't the documents with me when I left Singapore. Before I left, I was like :" Hmm, I should bring along those documents." until my other self was like :" Screw it dude! Bring it and screw your 'vacation'? You don't even need to bring this cause you can pass it up by Sunday!" - ( My teacher told me that I had a week to hand it up )
So I was like holy shit~ holy shit~. The weather was cold, and I wore a singlet to bed. Surprisingly, it was NOT that cold, and it felt good~. Oh yeah regarding that Holy Shit part. I just went to sleep and believed that it'll go all well.
- As I was writing what to blog for Day 2 in the wee hours of morning, I heard some screaming/laughing/sobbing/moaning sound. WTF? Sounded like some punksters or sex gone horribly wrong.
This time, I'm refreshed and awake, although not 100%. Me and my dad scanned halls E1 and E4 thoroughtly, and only E2 and E3 are left. Firstly, it rained/drizzled the whole day, and it was HORRIBLY cold. And yes, it felt good. Secondly, there are just too many people around. Toilet visit was long and horrible, and people staring at each other peeing. Lunch was worse. There were bout' 3 dining areas there only, and all were fully occupied. So I pulled my dad to the McDonald area where the queue was shorter. A 25 minutes queue, and the food was cold when it arrived. Still edible, and the drink was a blue solution (Imagine Aqueous Blue Copper Sulpahte solution) with a chewing gum/mint/coke flavour. Taste kinda ok, and my dad said it tasted great. Bleh. Oh yeah, litters dominated the whole area. Floor, tables, chairs. They're found everywhere, just like the zombies in horror movies.
The exhibition was what I expected, products, business contacts etc. Met alot of my dad's business friends, and one of them, Terence brought us around Shanghai. Afterall he's familiar with the surrounding there. We went to 人民大道 in search for CDs, and to my surprise, there's not a single CD shop to be found everywhere. Due to the drizzling, those CD stalls (Mobile ones I heard) are nowhere to be seen. Sad, cause the CDs are only RMB 25, bout' SGD$5. Another downside is that beggars beg hard for cash. They can follow you down the streets asking for $$$, and what's even more ironic is that they're dressed in nicer and better jackets than mine.
Returning to the hotel disappointed, I just slacked around lor. And to my horror, I needed to hand in the application form thingy regarding my choice of JCs by Friday 24/11 by 4pm. Well the horrible part is I'm stuck in China til Fri 12am, and I didn't the documents with me when I left Singapore. Before I left, I was like :" Hmm, I should bring along those documents." until my other self was like :" Screw it dude! Bring it and screw your 'vacation'? You don't even need to bring this cause you can pass it up by Sunday!" - ( My teacher told me that I had a week to hand it up )
So I was like holy shit~ holy shit~. The weather was cold, and I wore a singlet to bed. Surprisingly, it was NOT that cold, and it felt good~. Oh yeah regarding that Holy Shit part. I just went to sleep and believed that it'll go all well.
- As I was writing what to blog for Day 2 in the wee hours of morning, I heard some screaming/laughing/sobbing/moaning sound. WTF? Sounded like some punksters or sex gone horribly wrong.
Shanghai Trip - Day 1
This's my first trip to Shanghai, China and for some weird reasons, I was not particularly thrilled bout' this. Prehaps I made a hasty decision to join my Dad for the Bauma Exhibition 06 held there, during the big 'O's.
Well like the usual procedures of going to the airport; having dinner together, saying goodbyes, going through customs etc. It has been bout' 12 years since I've been on an airplane, and to other countries besides M'sia. The good thing is, that I bought myself a copy of the issue of EGM(UK) containing those Halo 3 multiplayer bits and chunks. The sad thing, I can't find the TimeZone arcade in the transit area.
I boarded the plane via some room named C17, and it kinda brought back familiar memories. The security check, that travelator, the tunnel connecting the plane's entrance. Well as I suspected, the economy class was a little too small for my size. Even my sister, who went on a trip to Hokkaido, Japan earlier this year had a TV screen and games to play, music to listen and even got a free Pokemon toy ! All I got was a bad night's sleep, squeezy conditions and a uncomfy seat. It was 1~2am when the plane left Singapore, and 15 minutes after that, we're forced to wake up, seat upright (bring the chair up) so that the passengers behind can open up the "table" to place their food with. For me, I can't even sleep. Try sleeping upright. Trust me it hurts.
So beside the fact that economy class is small, jam packed, it was a good experience. The thrust we feel during lift-off, the bouncing feeling during landing.
Reached Shanghai bout' 4~5 hours later, and I seem to recall that it was around 5~6am+ when we reached Shanghai. Dead tired but I switched my body to "energy saving" mode and managed to survive til 3pm. This is due to the fact that there's such a weird law regarding checking in of hotel is only authorized after 12noon. It has since been years since I first experienced the "Holy crap" thingy. Dragging our luggages, we went to eat at KFC. And between KFC and us was the Maglev (Magnetic train) station (More of an area). So we bought our tickets, assuming that KFC was INSIDE the station. To our horror, we had to leave the station to get there. But heng lah, the security guard allowed us an exception to leave and enter again later. Anyway the KFC there sells porridge, and egg burger o.O
Took the Maglev towards Long Yang(龙阳) Station, and the train felt like a skateboard travelling at 301 Km/h max speed. Smooth ride I must say. So dragging the ever heavy lugguages, we took a shuttle bus from the station to Bauma Exhibition 06 held at Shanghai Internation Expo. Apparently the crowd is starting to gather at the entrance, and the chinese there aren't really friendly. They cut queues. By the masses. So again, I managed to squeeze myself in amongst the huge crowd of chinese and some foreign visitors. Again, dragging of luggage issues, me, my dad and his friend aka uncle Sim, walked through 2 of the 4 exhibition halls. I was 1/2 dead during this time. So don't ask me bout' that visit that day.
Around 3pm+, we dragged our physically exhausted bodies back to our hotel, Xing Yu hotel (星宙大酒店). I took a short nap before leaving for lunch at 5, and it was some shop located in some famous shopping district. Claimed by my dad, the area was like some ancient China's kind of shops cluttered together. 小笼包 populated this area, and seriously, it tasted good. Very different from the Singapore version. There's also this dish where people drink their soup in this bowl sealed with a big bun on top, out of straws. Kinda weird. After dinner, we headed back to our hotel room, and I proceeded to watch TV. Tons of cable, but just no sports or english ones! Bored, I went to sleep. I woke up at 10pm, ate the take-away food bought by my dad went he apparently ditched me in the room alone and went to sight-see. Because I slept earlier, I was unable to sleep lor. I sat on my bed and written down what to blog for day 1. And yeah, I read that EGM mag too. Halo 3 totally rock my world XD
Well like the usual procedures of going to the airport; having dinner together, saying goodbyes, going through customs etc. It has been bout' 12 years since I've been on an airplane, and to other countries besides M'sia. The good thing is, that I bought myself a copy of the issue of EGM(UK) containing those Halo 3 multiplayer bits and chunks. The sad thing, I can't find the TimeZone arcade in the transit area.
I boarded the plane via some room named C17, and it kinda brought back familiar memories. The security check, that travelator, the tunnel connecting the plane's entrance. Well as I suspected, the economy class was a little too small for my size. Even my sister, who went on a trip to Hokkaido, Japan earlier this year had a TV screen and games to play, music to listen and even got a free Pokemon toy ! All I got was a bad night's sleep, squeezy conditions and a uncomfy seat. It was 1~2am when the plane left Singapore, and 15 minutes after that, we're forced to wake up, seat upright (bring the chair up) so that the passengers behind can open up the "table" to place their food with. For me, I can't even sleep. Try sleeping upright. Trust me it hurts.
So beside the fact that economy class is small, jam packed, it was a good experience. The thrust we feel during lift-off, the bouncing feeling during landing.
Reached Shanghai bout' 4~5 hours later, and I seem to recall that it was around 5~6am+ when we reached Shanghai. Dead tired but I switched my body to "energy saving" mode and managed to survive til 3pm. This is due to the fact that there's such a weird law regarding checking in of hotel is only authorized after 12noon. It has since been years since I first experienced the "Holy crap" thingy. Dragging our luggages, we went to eat at KFC. And between KFC and us was the Maglev (Magnetic train) station (More of an area). So we bought our tickets, assuming that KFC was INSIDE the station. To our horror, we had to leave the station to get there. But heng lah, the security guard allowed us an exception to leave and enter again later. Anyway the KFC there sells porridge, and egg burger o.O
Took the Maglev towards Long Yang(龙阳) Station, and the train felt like a skateboard travelling at 301 Km/h max speed. Smooth ride I must say. So dragging the ever heavy lugguages, we took a shuttle bus from the station to Bauma Exhibition 06 held at Shanghai Internation Expo. Apparently the crowd is starting to gather at the entrance, and the chinese there aren't really friendly. They cut queues. By the masses. So again, I managed to squeeze myself in amongst the huge crowd of chinese and some foreign visitors. Again, dragging of luggage issues, me, my dad and his friend aka uncle Sim, walked through 2 of the 4 exhibition halls. I was 1/2 dead during this time. So don't ask me bout' that visit that day.
Around 3pm+, we dragged our physically exhausted bodies back to our hotel, Xing Yu hotel (星宙大酒店). I took a short nap before leaving for lunch at 5, and it was some shop located in some famous shopping district. Claimed by my dad, the area was like some ancient China's kind of shops cluttered together. 小笼包 populated this area, and seriously, it tasted good. Very different from the Singapore version. There's also this dish where people drink their soup in this bowl sealed with a big bun on top, out of straws. Kinda weird. After dinner, we headed back to our hotel room, and I proceeded to watch TV. Tons of cable, but just no sports or english ones! Bored, I went to sleep. I woke up at 10pm, ate the take-away food bought by my dad went he apparently ditched me in the room alone and went to sight-see. Because I slept earlier, I was unable to sleep lor. I sat on my bed and written down what to blog for day 1. And yeah, I read that EGM mag too. Halo 3 totally rock my world XD
Monday, November 20, 2006
17 Nov 2006 : One small step for me, One giant leap for 4E1
Last Friday I had a great and exhausting( =.= ) time. I only got bout' 5 hours of sleep as I played til the wee hours of morning, and I had to rush to Maurice's house for a Xbox session and then the 4E1 Bbq later in the afternoon. Anyway, dragging my lazy bum of my cushion-bed~, I washed up, changed, drank coffee and off I went to Maurice's house.
Carrying along a Xbox console, 3 xbox controllers and half a dozen games is not a very pleasant experience, especially having to take a bus. Thank God it's not during the peak hours or else I have to drag the box to his house by foot. Finding his house was not plesant either. I took bus 59, forgetting the fact that it DOES not pass through the Bedok Reservoir Wet Market region, but instead passes through the Bedok North Secondary School area. Noticing this error, I got off the school's bus-stop and walked ALL the way to his house. It's bout' 15 mins walk. Oh I saw my cousin going to school too, but she didn't noticed me LoL. Hopes she does well for her papers.
When I reached his house, I was dead tired and pissed. His blocks were in circles. Beside block 113 is 120. Then where the heck is block 112? Anyway his house surprised me. The block was kinda old, not as old as mine though. The interior was beautiful. No not that kind of Designer's interior design, but rather a nice, comfortable home feeling. His hall was huge, although mine have a bigger area in terms of Sq Ft. As I went in, I saw it. The curvish, "sleek" white/silver lined box with a "360" on it. It had to be it. A Xbox 360. Disappointingly, he didn't get Gears Of War T-T.
Besides me, other friends came. All guys, and we're not gays. We played and played til 3.30pm, cause I had to prepare to go for the Bbq by bus, while the others decided to cycle there. I miss my bike T-T. Lugging that Xbox back home, I took a short rest and departed for Pasir Ris Park. It was round' 5+pm, and the designated time of meeting was 4.30pm, so I went alone instead. Nice feeling XD. Reached there after bout' 1 hour of travelling, and to my horror, the Bbq pit was nowhere near the playground. Instead, it's located towards the end of the park, and that's where a friend of mine has a condo unit in "Sandy Palm". I walked a long~ distance to reached there, and thankfully I was not sorely disappointed. Again to my horror, the food's not even here yet, let alone the charcoal, firestarters. The girls were just chit chatting around, so I went to the Guy's area. Borrowed a bike, went round the park, and just did what I want.
Finally bout 7+pm, the supplier came. And the Bbq "officially" started at 8pm. During this time, I borrowed a bike and just rode around again. This time, I saw this beautiful structure which I've seen several times from my previous visits here. And luck has it, I got lost while riding and ended up at the structure's peak. The view was simply stunning. It's just like a wide staircase with lamps placed around it. But it was beautiful. Suitable for a party( Pictures Techno under the stars XD ) or a romantic getaway for couples. I sat there, listened to my MP3 ( Although I didn't update it, there's some techno hits in it ) under the distant, yet brilliantly sparkling stars. The air was cool. The surrounding was quiet. I felt relaxed.
Around 8, I received a call from Jason that the food's being cooked. So they managed to start the fire afterall, I was expecting longer due to past experiences LoL. I went back, but I'm not a big fan of Bbq food though, so I didn't eat much. Anyway the whole Bbq-ing process, eating process was fun. The girls in 4E1 were ridiculously high that night. It can be mistaken that they're on drugs, horny or just mentally insane. Again, after some eating I rode the bike again. I don't get much opportunities to ride bikes due to my dad being obsessed with "safety" and gave mine away 4~6 years ago, so I did my best to ride all I want. I like that feeling of speed.
After the eating process, the girls wanted some "sacred dancing ritual" which I don't really understand, but it's fun. I get to hook up with 2 other girls LoL! But it's just for the sake of fun, no hanky panky involved. They sang this song "Auld Lang Syne" and etc, and did that really weird circling dance. I just followed them lor. It's great. But then it's hard to write such feelings down in words though. I'm not good at expressing how I feel/think.
I got a candle representing me ( HOLY DOES IT MEAN I'LL DIE IF THE CANDLE EXTINGUISHES ?), and a small, laminated photo of my class. I have it here with me as I type. We also had a 4E1 cake! Which tasted like alcohol! I love that taste! And the Muslims in my class didn't dare to touch it! Although the chinese girls reassured that it's rum or whatsoever, and it's halal.
The Bbq ended late around 11.20pm, and everyone scrambled for taxis, buses for the taxis charge extra after 12, the last buses leave at 11.30. So concluding that I'll miss my bus, I called my dad to fetch me and some friends. He's pissed, I know of it, but anyway he came.
Before he came, me and friends rushed to Pasir Ris Interchange and see if they could catch a bus. Apparently we can, but Alvin missed bus no. 15, so he can't reach home directly. So I talked them into allowing me to drive them home. We went to McDonald's to grab some bites before leaving. In the car, we chit chated til each and everyone of them reached home. It was a pleasant experience.
I reached home bout' 12.50pm, but I went to play com anyway. I played til 6am, then I took a quick bath (I sweated heavily and smell) and slept. I woke up at 11 am though X_x.
Carrying along a Xbox console, 3 xbox controllers and half a dozen games is not a very pleasant experience, especially having to take a bus. Thank God it's not during the peak hours or else I have to drag the box to his house by foot. Finding his house was not plesant either. I took bus 59, forgetting the fact that it DOES not pass through the Bedok Reservoir Wet Market region, but instead passes through the Bedok North Secondary School area. Noticing this error, I got off the school's bus-stop and walked ALL the way to his house. It's bout' 15 mins walk. Oh I saw my cousin going to school too, but she didn't noticed me LoL. Hopes she does well for her papers.
When I reached his house, I was dead tired and pissed. His blocks were in circles. Beside block 113 is 120. Then where the heck is block 112? Anyway his house surprised me. The block was kinda old, not as old as mine though. The interior was beautiful. No not that kind of Designer's interior design, but rather a nice, comfortable home feeling. His hall was huge, although mine have a bigger area in terms of Sq Ft. As I went in, I saw it. The curvish, "sleek" white/silver lined box with a "360" on it. It had to be it. A Xbox 360. Disappointingly, he didn't get Gears Of War T-T.
Besides me, other friends came. All guys, and we're not gays. We played and played til 3.30pm, cause I had to prepare to go for the Bbq by bus, while the others decided to cycle there. I miss my bike T-T. Lugging that Xbox back home, I took a short rest and departed for Pasir Ris Park. It was round' 5+pm, and the designated time of meeting was 4.30pm, so I went alone instead. Nice feeling XD. Reached there after bout' 1 hour of travelling, and to my horror, the Bbq pit was nowhere near the playground. Instead, it's located towards the end of the park, and that's where a friend of mine has a condo unit in "Sandy Palm". I walked a long~ distance to reached there, and thankfully I was not sorely disappointed. Again to my horror, the food's not even here yet, let alone the charcoal, firestarters. The girls were just chit chatting around, so I went to the Guy's area. Borrowed a bike, went round the park, and just did what I want.
Finally bout 7+pm, the supplier came. And the Bbq "officially" started at 8pm. During this time, I borrowed a bike and just rode around again. This time, I saw this beautiful structure which I've seen several times from my previous visits here. And luck has it, I got lost while riding and ended up at the structure's peak. The view was simply stunning. It's just like a wide staircase with lamps placed around it. But it was beautiful. Suitable for a party( Pictures Techno under the stars XD ) or a romantic getaway for couples. I sat there, listened to my MP3 ( Although I didn't update it, there's some techno hits in it ) under the distant, yet brilliantly sparkling stars. The air was cool. The surrounding was quiet. I felt relaxed.
Around 8, I received a call from Jason that the food's being cooked. So they managed to start the fire afterall, I was expecting longer due to past experiences LoL. I went back, but I'm not a big fan of Bbq food though, so I didn't eat much. Anyway the whole Bbq-ing process, eating process was fun. The girls in 4E1 were ridiculously high that night. It can be mistaken that they're on drugs, horny or just mentally insane. Again, after some eating I rode the bike again. I don't get much opportunities to ride bikes due to my dad being obsessed with "safety" and gave mine away 4~6 years ago, so I did my best to ride all I want. I like that feeling of speed.
After the eating process, the girls wanted some "sacred dancing ritual" which I don't really understand, but it's fun. I get to hook up with 2 other girls LoL! But it's just for the sake of fun, no hanky panky involved. They sang this song "Auld Lang Syne" and etc, and did that really weird circling dance. I just followed them lor. It's great. But then it's hard to write such feelings down in words though. I'm not good at expressing how I feel/think.
I got a candle representing me ( HOLY DOES IT MEAN I'LL DIE IF THE CANDLE EXTINGUISHES ?), and a small, laminated photo of my class. I have it here with me as I type. We also had a 4E1 cake! Which tasted like alcohol! I love that taste! And the Muslims in my class didn't dare to touch it! Although the chinese girls reassured that it's rum or whatsoever, and it's halal.
The Bbq ended late around 11.20pm, and everyone scrambled for taxis, buses for the taxis charge extra after 12, the last buses leave at 11.30. So concluding that I'll miss my bus, I called my dad to fetch me and some friends. He's pissed, I know of it, but anyway he came.
Before he came, me and friends rushed to Pasir Ris Interchange and see if they could catch a bus. Apparently we can, but Alvin missed bus no. 15, so he can't reach home directly. So I talked them into allowing me to drive them home. We went to McDonald's to grab some bites before leaving. In the car, we chit chated til each and everyone of them reached home. It was a pleasant experience.
I reached home bout' 12.50pm, but I went to play com anyway. I played til 6am, then I took a quick bath (I sweated heavily and smell) and slept. I woke up at 11 am though X_x.
Forever Young~ I want to forever young~
Enough crap bout' life being crappy. Enough shit bout' my dysfunctional family. Today, I'll talk bout' the beauty of life~ ( Angelic Melody ~Ah~)
Today did not started well for me. I overslept for my Pre-U briefing, Alvin misplaced his "F.E.A.R" game folder, my body system went cranky. I didn't get to drink a cup of coffee, stayed in the bathroom for bout' 45 mins, and by the time I went back to school, the briefing's over.
I love my class. I'm glad that I've met them during my walk down life. This 2 years we spent together may be short, some vivid memories may be unpleasant, some beautiful. This class is different from others in many different ways. 4E1 is dysfunctional, weird yet colourful. Life there is not necessary the MOST beautiful, but it's still good. We have weirdos, clowns and jokers fooling during lessons, machine guns and satellites, the Axis of Evil, Happy Tree(3) Friends aka KKB*, the NCCs, the gals and "The 4 Legendary Kings". Which other classes have such unique groups?
I've made good/new friends there, learn more bout' the uncertainty of human behaviour and more subjects( Of course ). My family, as much as I hate them, I love them as much. As I said, it's a love-hate relationship. It's weird I know.
I love my brother, although he likes to attract attention, lacked fashion style( Likes to wear my shirts =.= ), plump. But he's smart, WAY more responsible than me, and systematic. I'm proud to annouce, that even without any tuition or much help from me, he's able to be 33th out of 240 people. But he can't get into 3E1, damn the school. He's personality is like Inuyasha's. By the way he's very anti-blogging, cause I think he does not have much of a life to blog bout'.
My parents are different from other parents and strict, but I appreciate them for them. At least they care.
Well it's good to have dreams for life, and memories and experiences, although some are total bullshit and unpleasant, are equally important.
- If you reading this post, happens to be MY brother, then I'll say this to you,:" Say whatever you want bout' being a Gay to blog. If you lack a life to blog, too bad and diam diam. Since you like to read every half hour bout' what I post, you seriously need to get a life."
Today did not started well for me. I overslept for my Pre-U briefing, Alvin misplaced his "F.E.A.R" game folder, my body system went cranky. I didn't get to drink a cup of coffee, stayed in the bathroom for bout' 45 mins, and by the time I went back to school, the briefing's over.
I love my class. I'm glad that I've met them during my walk down life. This 2 years we spent together may be short, some vivid memories may be unpleasant, some beautiful. This class is different from others in many different ways. 4E1 is dysfunctional, weird yet colourful. Life there is not necessary the MOST beautiful, but it's still good. We have weirdos, clowns and jokers fooling during lessons, machine guns and satellites, the Axis of Evil, Happy Tree(3) Friends aka KKB*, the NCCs, the gals and "The 4 Legendary Kings". Which other classes have such unique groups?
I've made good/new friends there, learn more bout' the uncertainty of human behaviour and more subjects( Of course ). My family, as much as I hate them, I love them as much. As I said, it's a love-hate relationship. It's weird I know.
I love my brother, although he likes to attract attention, lacked fashion style( Likes to wear my shirts =.= ), plump. But he's smart, WAY more responsible than me, and systematic. I'm proud to annouce, that even without any tuition or much help from me, he's able to be 33th out of 240 people. But he can't get into 3E1, damn the school. He's personality is like Inuyasha's. By the way he's very anti-blogging, cause I think he does not have much of a life to blog bout'.
My parents are different from other parents and strict, but I appreciate them for them. At least they care.
Well it's good to have dreams for life, and memories and experiences, although some are total bullshit and unpleasant, are equally important.
- If you reading this post, happens to be MY brother, then I'll say this to you,:" Say whatever you want bout' being a Gay to blog. If you lack a life to blog, too bad and diam diam. Since you like to read every half hour bout' what I post, you seriously need to get a life."
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Time may heal wounds, but it sure can't make one forget
While typing bout' me not trusting my parents, it's a personal thing. I remember at some point in my Sec 4 life, I've written this sentence in a chinese compo :
Parents are humans after all, and humans do err from time to time. If we don't forgive our parents for their mistake, then who will?
I can tell anyone straight in the eye, that I've lived up to the sentence. If not, I'll dare say that life would be very different from now. But I do blame them from time to time for stupid doing stupid things, but there's one thing which cannot be easily forgetten through the passage of time. They failed to be there with me at my lowest point of life. When I fell to the lowest point of life, where were you when I needed you the most? I remember. No one was there to help me. I was all alone. Life never returned to 100% normal.
I'm not sure if anyone has such experience like mine, but I know one thing for sure. There're people out there who experienced worse than me. I also believe that I did a great job of being optimistic bout' life, cause I forgot alot of bad experiences I had. I only remembered the main points.
My life went haywire when I reached Primary 1. As I was unable to enter Red Swastika School, I entered Min Xin Primary instead. It was there I changed. I met this guy named Michael, from Taiwan. We and some few guys always hanged around each other, and he's older than us, so that made him the boss. It's from him I learnt vulgarities, how to fight. I admit, my brother became bad due to my influence. I unleashed vulgarities and always got into a fight with him. I also cursed my parents with vulgarities. I was 6~7 years old that time. I lost interest in schooling and I dropped from 3rd position to 22th position in class.
What made me to change to become a better, not necessarily a very obedient guy, was that one time my Mom broke down and wept in front of me. It was the first time (And certainly not the last) I saw her cry. And man, she cried hard. I did my best, ditched those bad behaviours. Due to being a nice guy in school now, I found it hard to adapt back to school life. From that instance, I never loved to attend school. And I never did. My life changed again when I tried to walk down the "correct" path in life. I lost friends, I got backstabbed, I was depressed.
Friends left me for I became a goody two shoes. My best pal ditched me for those friends, and I remembered his words til now :" Who wants to be friends with you? You're weird, and you're a sissy."
My life reached its lowest point. I had no one to depend on. My parents were Very, Very BUSY, and had "no" time to listen and guide me. So I was left practically alone. For 2~3 years in school, I felt depressed. To make it worse, my thinking and behaviours were very different from the others, so it's called lacking "universally accpeted personality traits". So I was isolated from everyone. I thought of commiting sucide, transferring/skipping schools. Life totally suck at that time. It sucked so badly that I cried almost everyday after school for the pitiful existence I had. But thankfully, I was mentally strong enough not to actually jump off my block to end my life.
I pity Humanity's existence and also wanted to either wipe out or re-modify it to near perfection. I actually admired Lex-Luthor, arch-nemisis of Superman. I became repressed, refused to talk to anyone, refused to trust anyone. Life turned for the better when I met Mrs Krishnan during my Pri 4 and 5 years. With her encouragement, supervision, I fared better in my studies. I got into EM 1! There's another teacher which have a great impact on my life. Ms Yeo. Firstly, she's beautiful, she got the body, and best of all, her personality. This would be the first time in 4 years that I talked bout' her. Apart from that she's so gorgeous that my jaws dropped, she was patient, nice, funny and strict. But one thing which I seriously got uncomfortable was that she kept asking me if I was okay and needed someone to talk to. I, don't want to seek help. I don't want people to think that I'm a mentally ill person. She taught me to be how to live life and be optimistic bout' it. She also shaped my vision of the type of girl I would want to marry eventually one day. Hope to find her soon =)
I never recovered fully from Depression though, my parents also never knew bout' this cause I never made any effort to tell them since they went "yeah whatever" when I told them of my hellish primary school life. I never consulted a doctor bout' it. But I reviewed the symptoms based on a commercial by the Government back in those days bout' suffering Depression.
1) Do you feel sad, tired of life? - Yeah
2) Do you lack appetite - Nope, I indulged in food that I became fat
3) Have you thought of commiting sucide - Hell yeah
It's something like that, but I don't recall all of them.
I broke down twice in secondary school. I lost friends as a result, and it's hard to even say hi to them. I could never fully trust people, not even my own family. Being repressed for most of my primary school years also resulted me in having difficulty of making friends, cause I refused to interact often. I made a bet with God (I think he DO exist)that I if I could enter 3E1 with my horrible results (It's because I can't be bothered with the other tests and exams, only the end of the year's. I did quite well but they took the overall 4 exams =.=) and become a better man for one of the few girls who attracted me (I can say that I only got attracted by 5 girls only in my life so far). Apparently I went to 3E1 and she went into the same class too =X
I must say I've changed alot since Sec 3, in terms of thinking and behaviour. I love my class, my friends, my family (Although there's many toe-stepping still occurring) and life.
I dream to see the world, and how its inhabitants are doing. I dream of craving my own business empire and influence and improve the life and quality of humanity. I believe, we, humanity were given such power to out-evolve other organisms for a specific reason. I prefer to believe that it's to make the world a better place for everything and everyone. And of course, what's life without enjoyment? I want to open a club/pub/disco or whatever it's called, to bring all people who love life together and party~!!!
A personal quote: Since teenage life is dominated by the raging hormones, why not embrace it and admire the opposite gender? Oogling at them is not being pervertic or bad or whatsoever. Not oogling at them will be kinda worrying, especially when someone says that he has no interest in the opposite gender.
I can tell anyone straight in the eye, that I've lived up to the sentence. If not, I'll dare say that life would be very different from now. But I do blame them from time to time for stupid doing stupid things, but there's one thing which cannot be easily forgetten through the passage of time. They failed to be there with me at my lowest point of life. When I fell to the lowest point of life, where were you when I needed you the most? I remember. No one was there to help me. I was all alone. Life never returned to 100% normal.
I'm not sure if anyone has such experience like mine, but I know one thing for sure. There're people out there who experienced worse than me. I also believe that I did a great job of being optimistic bout' life, cause I forgot alot of bad experiences I had. I only remembered the main points.
My life went haywire when I reached Primary 1. As I was unable to enter Red Swastika School, I entered Min Xin Primary instead. It was there I changed. I met this guy named Michael, from Taiwan. We and some few guys always hanged around each other, and he's older than us, so that made him the boss. It's from him I learnt vulgarities, how to fight. I admit, my brother became bad due to my influence. I unleashed vulgarities and always got into a fight with him. I also cursed my parents with vulgarities. I was 6~7 years old that time. I lost interest in schooling and I dropped from 3rd position to 22th position in class.
What made me to change to become a better, not necessarily a very obedient guy, was that one time my Mom broke down and wept in front of me. It was the first time (And certainly not the last) I saw her cry. And man, she cried hard. I did my best, ditched those bad behaviours. Due to being a nice guy in school now, I found it hard to adapt back to school life. From that instance, I never loved to attend school. And I never did. My life changed again when I tried to walk down the "correct" path in life. I lost friends, I got backstabbed, I was depressed.
Friends left me for I became a goody two shoes. My best pal ditched me for those friends, and I remembered his words til now :" Who wants to be friends with you? You're weird, and you're a sissy."
My life reached its lowest point. I had no one to depend on. My parents were Very, Very BUSY, and had "no" time to listen and guide me. So I was left practically alone. For 2~3 years in school, I felt depressed. To make it worse, my thinking and behaviours were very different from the others, so it's called lacking "universally accpeted personality traits". So I was isolated from everyone. I thought of commiting sucide, transferring/skipping schools. Life totally suck at that time. It sucked so badly that I cried almost everyday after school for the pitiful existence I had. But thankfully, I was mentally strong enough not to actually jump off my block to end my life.
I pity Humanity's existence and also wanted to either wipe out or re-modify it to near perfection. I actually admired Lex-Luthor, arch-nemisis of Superman. I became repressed, refused to talk to anyone, refused to trust anyone. Life turned for the better when I met Mrs Krishnan during my Pri 4 and 5 years. With her encouragement, supervision, I fared better in my studies. I got into EM 1! There's another teacher which have a great impact on my life. Ms Yeo. Firstly, she's beautiful, she got the body, and best of all, her personality. This would be the first time in 4 years that I talked bout' her. Apart from that she's so gorgeous that my jaws dropped, she was patient, nice, funny and strict. But one thing which I seriously got uncomfortable was that she kept asking me if I was okay and needed someone to talk to. I, don't want to seek help. I don't want people to think that I'm a mentally ill person. She taught me to be how to live life and be optimistic bout' it. She also shaped my vision of the type of girl I would want to marry eventually one day. Hope to find her soon =)
I never recovered fully from Depression though, my parents also never knew bout' this cause I never made any effort to tell them since they went "yeah whatever" when I told them of my hellish primary school life. I never consulted a doctor bout' it. But I reviewed the symptoms based on a commercial by the Government back in those days bout' suffering Depression.
2) Do you lack appetite - Nope, I indulged in food that I became fat
3) Have you thought of commiting sucide - Hell yeah
It's something like that, but I don't recall all of them.
I broke down twice in secondary school. I lost friends as a result, and it's hard to even say hi to them. I could never fully trust people, not even my own family. Being repressed for most of my primary school years also resulted me in having difficulty of making friends, cause I refused to interact often. I made a bet with God (I think he DO exist)that I if I could enter 3E1 with my horrible results (It's because I can't be bothered with the other tests and exams, only the end of the year's. I did quite well but they took the overall 4 exams =.=) and become a better man for one of the few girls who attracted me (I can say that I only got attracted by 5 girls only in my life so far). Apparently I went to 3E1 and she went into the same class too =X
I must say I've changed alot since Sec 3, in terms of thinking and behaviour. I love my class, my friends, my family (Although there's many toe-stepping still occurring) and life.
I dream to see the world, and how its inhabitants are doing. I dream of craving my own business empire and influence and improve the life and quality of humanity. I believe, we, humanity were given such power to out-evolve other organisms for a specific reason. I prefer to believe that it's to make the world a better place for everything and everyone. And of course, what's life without enjoyment? I want to open a club/pub/disco or whatever it's called, to bring all people who love life together and party~!!!
A personal quote: Since teenage life is dominated by the raging hormones, why not embrace it and admire the opposite gender? Oogling at them is not being pervertic or bad or whatsoever. Not oogling at them will be kinda worrying, especially when someone says that he has no interest in the opposite gender.
I'm going to China tomorrow~ And I'm not glad bout' it
Haiz I'm leaving for China tomorrow, but I have not done any preparations for this trip. Packing, informing Uncle John bout' that dinner, winter clothing, mindset.
Tomorrow's might be the last day the class of 4E1, well, to be together as class 4E1. After today, we're considered as "adults" in some sense, so it sucks. Adults equates to more responsibilities, hardships, betrayals and a faster meeting with death. I hope that this time, I'll not forget to collect the contacts of everyone in 4E1, regardless of who they are, where they are. I've missed bout' 2~3 opportunities to get them, so this's my last chance.
Anyway, tomorrow's the day we get to choose our JCs and courses to take, well I'm not too sure bout' that cause I didn't hear bout' this. At all. This means I'll have to dress in that uniform again and that red tie which strangles. Oh well, it's my last time going back to school as a Damaian.
Like every holiday I'm faced with days of boredom. I'm rotting at home, along with that ever uniquely horrible yet weird brother. If my sister's at home, home becomes hell with my ever uniquely horrible yet weird brother trying to "do" somethings which I could never understand, so it's presumed that he's either doing some secret experiments on her, trying to "Hit" on her or He lacks more universally accepted behaviours and traits than me.
I want a Xbox 360 real bad enough that I'm actually considering of taking up a job, and to also kill some time. But thank God, "The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya" finished downloading yesterday, so I DID managed to kill some time watching this anime. Problem is, it's only 14 episodes, and I've finished 10 episodes. Bout's 100 mins more to go. Seriously I hope Shanghai got some nice places to visit and play.
Today's a living hell for me as my bro and sister did their usual "I hit you, you hit me" routine again. He does weird things to her, she screams and retaliate, dear mom also does her berserking routine too. So being an innocent by-stander caught in such shit for perhaps an eternity, life at home just sucks. I actually had a great time studying in the wee hours for my house is actually SILENT during this times. My dad does his usual bullshit of "Sleep early or Die" often, but I dont give a hoot bout' that. Sleep early and give up my few hours of freedom? Wake up early to see and hear this "I hit you, you hit me" shit again? Hell no, I rather lead a dysfunctional life than suffer more of this crap.
Today's dinner was also so-so, for my bro suggested to go to this isolated coffee shop to eat. Though the "Zhu Chao" stall's owned by our school friend, but if I dont want to go, that trip will never be pleasant for me. Dinner was edible but not the best, with the interior lacking so badly that I can't bring myself to look inside.
But what really spoilt my day were my parents. Not that I really hate them or anything but, never make a promise that you can't make. 4 years ago, my Mom made a promise to bring me to Fish & Co. to taste its Fish & Chips for it's really good, but apparently she never did. Over the past 4 years, she made up a bullshit crapload of excuses like the food is too expensive, the food sucks etc. Again today, someone said something bout' food and Fish & Co. , so I reminded my Mom of failure to keep that promise. She "promised" to bring me there next week. Do I take her word for it? Fuck if I did, so I told her off.
My Dad was no better. He likes to make a shitload of empty promises that I shot him down so badly that he hardly promises me anything unless it's capable of being done. Apparently he promised a CD after the 'O's to "reward" me for working hard. I know it's bullshit, but I took his word for it. BAD MISTAKE. He shrugged it off and denied shit.
Shit, I'm feeling more pissed typing this post.
Tomorrow's might be the last day the class of 4E1, well, to be together as class 4E1. After today, we're considered as "adults" in some sense, so it sucks. Adults equates to more responsibilities, hardships, betrayals and a faster meeting with death. I hope that this time, I'll not forget to collect the contacts of everyone in 4E1, regardless of who they are, where they are. I've missed bout' 2~3 opportunities to get them, so this's my last chance.
Anyway, tomorrow's the day we get to choose our JCs and courses to take, well I'm not too sure bout' that cause I didn't hear bout' this. At all. This means I'll have to dress in that uniform again and that red tie which strangles. Oh well, it's my last time going back to school as a Damaian.
Like every holiday I'm faced with days of boredom. I'm rotting at home, along with that ever uniquely horrible yet weird brother. If my sister's at home, home becomes hell with my ever uniquely horrible yet weird brother trying to "do" somethings which I could never understand, so it's presumed that he's either doing some secret experiments on her, trying to "Hit" on her or He lacks more universally accepted behaviours and traits than me.
I want a Xbox 360 real bad enough that I'm actually considering of taking up a job, and to also kill some time. But thank God, "The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya" finished downloading yesterday, so I DID managed to kill some time watching this anime. Problem is, it's only 14 episodes, and I've finished 10 episodes. Bout's 100 mins more to go. Seriously I hope Shanghai got some nice places to visit and play.
Today's a living hell for me as my bro and sister did their usual "I hit you, you hit me" routine again. He does weird things to her, she screams and retaliate, dear mom also does her berserking routine too. So being an innocent by-stander caught in such shit for perhaps an eternity, life at home just sucks. I actually had a great time studying in the wee hours for my house is actually SILENT during this times. My dad does his usual bullshit of "Sleep early or Die" often, but I dont give a hoot bout' that. Sleep early and give up my few hours of freedom? Wake up early to see and hear this "I hit you, you hit me" shit again? Hell no, I rather lead a dysfunctional life than suffer more of this crap.
Today's dinner was also so-so, for my bro suggested to go to this isolated coffee shop to eat. Though the "Zhu Chao" stall's owned by our school friend, but if I dont want to go, that trip will never be pleasant for me. Dinner was edible but not the best, with the interior lacking so badly that I can't bring myself to look inside.
But what really spoilt my day were my parents. Not that I really hate them or anything but, never make a promise that you can't make. 4 years ago, my Mom made a promise to bring me to Fish & Co. to taste its Fish & Chips for it's really good, but apparently she never did. Over the past 4 years, she made up a bullshit crapload of excuses like the food is too expensive, the food sucks etc. Again today, someone said something bout' food and Fish & Co. , so I reminded my Mom of failure to keep that promise. She "promised" to bring me there next week. Do I take her word for it? Fuck if I did, so I told her off.
My Dad was no better. He likes to make a shitload of empty promises that I shot him down so badly that he hardly promises me anything unless it's capable of being done. Apparently he promised a CD after the 'O's to "reward" me for working hard. I know it's bullshit, but I took his word for it. BAD MISTAKE. He shrugged it off and denied shit.
Shit, I'm feeling more pissed typing this post.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
I was checking my mail while I was blogging, and yes, I'm so bored that I'm double posting.
Les sent me this "must forward to many to have good luck with Love or die" chain e-mail( again ). I don't really like this kind of stuffs, cause it's dumb in some sense. As dumb as it seems, there's some mushy, yet nice and meaningful messages in it.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.
That message,(particullarly the 1st sentence) I've heard it tons and tons of time from friends bout' my issue. It's kinda sad. I lack the courage to say it out. I'm very confused right now, and it's something which has no clear cut solutions to it. It may succeed, it may fail. I'm such a flirt, darn it.
Les sent me this "must forward to many to have good luck with Love or die" chain e-mail( again ). I don't really like this kind of stuffs, cause it's dumb in some sense. As dumb as it seems, there's some mushy, yet nice and meaningful messages in it.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.
That message,(particullarly the 1st sentence) I've heard it tons and tons of time from friends bout' my issue. It's kinda sad. I lack the courage to say it out. I'm very confused right now, and it's something which has no clear cut solutions to it. It may succeed, it may fail. I'm such a flirt, darn it.
Glitch In The System
My body clock has gone haywire for the past few days, cause I do not sleep before 2am, and also the fact that I only sleep for 9 hours for the past 2 days.
It all started because of this. After the big 'O's, I felt lost cause I had nothing to do. The only stress factor I had was having nothing fun to do, even during the frantic revisions in the unholy hours seemed fun. I had no cash to get new Xbox games, let alone a Xbox360. As bored as I am, I went to play Maple Story. There was I playing one whole day til bout' 11pm+, but it was still boring anyway. After that, it struck me. Insomania!(Spelt something like that)
Bored, bored, bored. I decided to stay up just to find stuffs to do. Apparently, there's not much to do. Bored to tears, I went to sleep. It was around 3~4am+ on Friday's morning. Big mistake. I forgot that I had to go to Maurice's house at 10. I woke myself up at 8+ but I needed a LONG time to kick start my body system. Coffee, some bread, something to increase adrenaline level.
I went to his house around 10~11am and played there for the whole morning and early afternoon(Man, his house is as big as mine. It's just that mine is 2 stories lol). I left around 3+ to make it for 4E1's class Bbq (Posting on mon*), but alas, I was late so I went alone. Even so I'm ok with that. I'm used to being a loner. By the way I saw a very gorgeous girl on the bus LoL, and no, I didn't try to hit on her or whatsoever cause it's complicated. And I meant VERY.
I had a great time at the Bbq, but it ended late (And I'll tell you why next time). I got my dad to fetch me and some friends (It's 12.15am for Heaven's sake. No bus). We escorted each and everyone back home, and when I reached home I didn't rush for the bed immedialately, cause I'm sweaty and smelly. Worse, I'm not exhausted. I could go on and play longer XD. Anyway I fooled around, blogged a little (See time of previous post), and went to bed (after bathing) around 6.15am today. And I woke up at 12 pm today, hungry. So I did the daily routine and blogged again. Cause I'm seriously bored.
-Bored to death. Going to find a job as soon as I'm back from China.
It all started because of this. After the big 'O's, I felt lost cause I had nothing to do. The only stress factor I had was having nothing fun to do, even during the frantic revisions in the unholy hours seemed fun. I had no cash to get new Xbox games, let alone a Xbox360. As bored as I am, I went to play Maple Story. There was I playing one whole day til bout' 11pm+, but it was still boring anyway. After that, it struck me. Insomania!(Spelt something like that)
Bored, bored, bored. I decided to stay up just to find stuffs to do. Apparently, there's not much to do. Bored to tears, I went to sleep. It was around 3~4am+ on Friday's morning. Big mistake. I forgot that I had to go to Maurice's house at 10. I woke myself up at 8+ but I needed a LONG time to kick start my body system. Coffee, some bread, something to increase adrenaline level.
I went to his house around 10~11am and played there for the whole morning and early afternoon(Man, his house is as big as mine. It's just that mine is 2 stories lol). I left around 3+ to make it for 4E1's class Bbq (Posting on mon*), but alas, I was late so I went alone. Even so I'm ok with that. I'm used to being a loner. By the way I saw a very gorgeous girl on the bus LoL, and no, I didn't try to hit on her or whatsoever cause it's complicated. And I meant VERY.
I had a great time at the Bbq, but it ended late (And I'll tell you why next time). I got my dad to fetch me and some friends (It's 12.15am for Heaven's sake. No bus). We escorted each and everyone back home, and when I reached home I didn't rush for the bed immedialately, cause I'm sweaty and smelly. Worse, I'm not exhausted. I could go on and play longer XD. Anyway I fooled around, blogged a little (See time of previous post), and went to bed (after bathing) around 6.15am today. And I woke up at 12 pm today, hungry. So I did the daily routine and blogged again. Cause I'm seriously bored.
-Bored to death. Going to find a job as soon as I'm back from China.
An Extreme Makeover
Today, I made a resolution to have an Extreme Makeover. Well maybe not that extreme, but hey a makeover is still a makeover.
*Crap. AsI'm typing this post, I saw a shadow. Twice. It's less than 50cm away from me. Is my brain or eyes tiring out ?
Ignoring it, and with goosebumps all over me, I continue the post.
Anyway as I was saying, I'm going to undertake a makeover.
I'm gonna quit Maple Story. Firstly, ugly Singaporean (Mostly teens) with poor EQ and possibly IQ. Secondly, monopolizing the game. Wizet did a great job of "encouraging" us to purchase the cash card, aka $ card, A card, A cash( 10,000 A cash for SGD$10.50 ), just because we need it to look cool. To spare us the misery of leveling at a snail's pace. Last and thirdly, I find no meaning or sense of purpose in MS anymore. Hey it's not that MS is a crappy game, it's a great game, just ruined by several factors, particullay UGLY Singaporeans. Rare kind Maplers are rare now.
I'm gonna have this approach to life. Follow One's heart.(Particually those which I want).
I'm gonna learn how to draw manga/anime to capture the beauty of life. It offers more than photo taking. I'm wanna learn Japanese/korean/German language/writing, marketing, sales and business, redesign my blog and I wanna buff up my body too LoL. It's to make up for the wasted years spent on nothingness.
Electric guitar playing is also another one, but not because I love Rock, Heavy Metal or other music genre but because of this (You gotta listen to it):
www.mothergoat.net/mp3/theprisoner-nonarr.mp3
and also this :
www.mothergoat.net/hail117anthem.mp3
I'm also gonna find some holiday jobs, maybe ranging from F&B, Sales, Office admin etc. I wanna see what these industries have to offer to me, and also for this two particular reasons: Entertainment (Xbox360, Wii and perhaps a PS3. Halo 3 and Gears Of War XD) and Luxury (AiPod? A digital camera? A destop comupter or laptop?)
Yesterday, on the 17th of Nov I went to 4E1 "last" class Bbq. At first I resented the thought of going there, cause it was suppose to be a chalet, and this Bbq was a last minute thing. But I enjoyed it. I'm not gonna blog bout' it now cause I don't have any of the pictures taken with me now, so perhaps next Monday just before I leave for China for a business trip. Seriously, it's a business trip.
By the way bout' the machine gun part by this lady named KC (http://everstarry.blogspot.com/), I'm kinda honoured actually. Oh yeah, she's from my class.
Andrew has his own Xbox360 now (Boo Hoo Hoo). I'm seem to be the only XBL guys without a 360. I want to play Gears Of War. NOW.
-Edwin, I hope your Grandfather will recover soon from ICU. See you at the dinner soon.
*Crap. AsI'm typing this post, I saw a shadow. Twice. It's less than 50cm away from me. Is my brain or eyes tiring out ?
Ignoring it, and with goosebumps all over me, I continue the post.
Anyway as I was saying, I'm going to undertake a makeover.
I'm gonna quit Maple Story. Firstly, ugly Singaporean (Mostly teens) with poor EQ and possibly IQ. Secondly, monopolizing the game. Wizet did a great job of "encouraging" us to purchase the cash card, aka $ card, A card, A cash( 10,000 A cash for SGD$10.50 ), just because we need it to look cool. To spare us the misery of leveling at a snail's pace. Last and thirdly, I find no meaning or sense of purpose in MS anymore. Hey it's not that MS is a crappy game, it's a great game, just ruined by several factors, particullay UGLY Singaporeans. Rare kind Maplers are rare now.
I'm gonna have this approach to life. Follow One's heart.(Particually those which I want).
I'm gonna learn how to draw manga/anime to capture the beauty of life. It offers more than photo taking. I'm wanna learn Japanese/korean/German language/writing, marketing, sales and business, redesign my blog and I wanna buff up my body too LoL. It's to make up for the wasted years spent on nothingness.
Electric guitar playing is also another one, but not because I love Rock, Heavy Metal or other music genre but because of this (You gotta listen to it):
and also this :
I'm also gonna find some holiday jobs, maybe ranging from F&B, Sales, Office admin etc. I wanna see what these industries have to offer to me, and also for this two particular reasons: Entertainment (Xbox360, Wii and perhaps a PS3. Halo 3 and Gears Of War XD) and Luxury (AiPod? A digital camera? A destop comupter or laptop?)
Yesterday, on the 17th of Nov I went to 4E1 "last" class Bbq. At first I resented the thought of going there, cause it was suppose to be a chalet, and this Bbq was a last minute thing. But I enjoyed it. I'm not gonna blog bout' it now cause I don't have any of the pictures taken with me now, so perhaps next Monday just before I leave for China for a business trip. Seriously, it's a business trip.
By the way bout' the machine gun part by this lady named KC (http://everstarry.blogspot.com/), I'm kinda honoured actually. Oh yeah, she's from my class.
Andrew has his own Xbox360 now (Boo Hoo Hoo). I'm seem to be the only XBL guys without a 360. I want to play Gears Of War. NOW.
-Edwin, I hope your Grandfather will recover soon from ICU. See you at the dinner soon.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Hey they started it first !
I'm kinda lost for words now cause I finished my big 'O's, and I feel funny.
Not that I study til the wee hours of morning and suffer anxiety attack every few minutes, it's just that to suddenly stop studying feels funny.
I came home today, and my sub-consience told myself,:" Dude, you gotta play Maple Story today. Play til you drop."
My other sub-consience (Gemninis have 2 of each. So it's a good and a bad thing),
went :" No No No! Go sleep and just cool down. Think of doing something more meaningful."
Anyway I did play Maple for several hours, and I still pity the the future of Singapore's society.
1)I play MS for less than 15mins and my training area(Mixed Golem Forest) got raided not just by a party. 3 parties, and their average level was at least 90. My party only had 1 lvl 89 hermit, while the others were in our 70s. The "Mafia Boss" was this guy with the IGN : Disturb , and he can't even state a proper reason to why they (about 16 of them) raided the map. - What bout' Netball and whatever Sakura that guy is? They're not in the map. We dont know them. Why raid ?
2)Some girls have no respect for their gender. This guy joked about some crap bout' the "Vagina", and a girl replied,:"Want to play with it?" - WTF?! =.=, I can swear she sounds like a 14 yr old
3)Maple Story came up with the idea of having a Spa in this Gangster town, and the NPCs sold this robe. The Spa was mixed gender, and guys started going horny. Just within 3 visits there, I've heard : Molest, Hentai, F**K and even r@pe =.=.
4)Use of language. Really sad. Made no attempt to type "readable" english
5)There's more, but I'm lazy to type it out. To think MS is dominated by teenagers.
Pity pity.... Not that I'm a perfect Singaporean, but at least... Respect each other or Oneself.
*Thinks of Brother and shakes head.
- He's Inuyasha (With a very childish behaviour) and I'm more of Shessmoru. Does that mean bad ?
Not that I study til the wee hours of morning and suffer anxiety attack every few minutes, it's just that to suddenly stop studying feels funny.
I came home today, and my sub-consience told myself,:" Dude, you gotta play Maple Story today. Play til you drop."
My other sub-consience (Gemninis have 2 of each. So it's a good and a bad thing),
went :" No No No! Go sleep and just cool down. Think of doing something more meaningful."
Anyway I did play Maple for several hours, and I still pity the the future of Singapore's society.
1)I play MS for less than 15mins and my training area(Mixed Golem Forest) got raided not just by a party. 3 parties, and their average level was at least 90. My party only had 1 lvl 89 hermit, while the others were in our 70s. The "Mafia Boss" was this guy with the IGN : Disturb , and he can't even state a proper reason to why they (about 16 of them) raided the map. - What bout' Netball and whatever Sakura that guy is? They're not in the map. We dont know them. Why raid ?
2)Some girls have no respect for their gender. This guy joked about some crap bout' the "Vagina", and a girl replied,:"Want to play with it?" - WTF?! =.=, I can swear she sounds like a 14 yr old
3)Maple Story came up with the idea of having a Spa in this Gangster town, and the NPCs sold this robe. The Spa was mixed gender, and guys started going horny. Just within 3 visits there, I've heard : Molest, Hentai, F**K and even r@pe =.=.
4)Use of language. Really sad. Made no attempt to type "readable" english
5)There's more, but I'm lazy to type it out. To think MS is dominated by teenagers.
Pity pity.... Not that I'm a perfect Singaporean, but at least... Respect each other or Oneself.
*Thinks of Brother and shakes head.
- He's Inuyasha (With a very childish behaviour) and I'm more of Shessmoru. Does that mean bad ?
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
19:05 Hrs more ( As of time of last post )
Just 19Hrs and 5 mins more.
By the way,
You just gotta love the Chief.
By the way,
You just gotta love the Chief.
Monday, November 06, 2006
The Horoscope Investigation : Pt 2
Now for mine. This will be more accurate than my Bro's. I hope.
Traditional Gemini traits
Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively
On the dark side....
Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistent
Cunning and inquisitive
Quotes from the text which are true bout me ?
-On the one hand it produces the virtue of versatility, and on the other the vices of two-facedness and flightiness.
-When they are good, they are very attractive; when they are bad they are more the worse for being the charmers they are
-Like children they are lively, and happy, if circumstances are right for them, or egocentric, imaginative and restless.
-They take up new activities enthusiastically but lack application, constantly needing new interests, flitting from project to project as apparently purposelessly as a butterfly dancing from flower to flower.
-To them life is a game which must always be full of fresh moves and continuous entertainment, free of labor and routine.
-Changing horses in the middle of the stream is another small quirk in the Gemini personality which makes decision making, and sticking to a decision, particularly hard for them.
-Since they lack the quality of conscientiousness, they are apt to fight a losing battle in any attempts they make to be moral (in the widest sense of the word).
-good qualities are attractive and come easily to them. They are affectionate, courteous, kind, generous, and thoughtful towards the poor and suffering - provided none of the activities resulting from expressing these traits interferes too greatly with their own lives and comforts.
-They quickly learn to use their outward attractiveness to gain their own ends, and when striving for these they will use any weapon in their armory - unscrupulous lying, and cunning evasiveness; escaping blame by contriving to put it on other people, wrapped up in all the charm they can turn on. In their better moments they may strive to be honest and straightforward, but self-interest is almost always the victor. If things go against them, they sulk like children.
-They reflect every change in their surroundings, like chameleons, and can become pessimistic, sullen, peevish and materialistically self-centered if circumstances force them to struggle in any way. If the conditions of life become really adverse, their strength of will may desert them entirely.
-can become uncertain of themselves, either withdrawn, or nervously excitable worriers, sullenly discontented, hard and irritable, with "Self" looming ever larger in their struggles.
-On the other hand their versatility can make them very adaptable, adjusting themselves to control the world around them by means of their inherent ingenuity and cleverness.
-Most Gemini have a keen, intuitive, sometimes brilliant intelligence and they love cerebral challenges. But their concentration, though intense for a while, does not last. Their mental agility and energy give them a voracious appetite for knowledge from youth onward, though they dislike the labor of learning. They easily grasp almost everything requiring intelligence and mental dexterity, and are often able to marry manual skills to their qualities of mind.
-Their intellect is strongly analytical and sometimes gives them so great an ability to see both sides of a question that they vacillate and find it hard to make decisions.
-If faced with difficulties, they have little determination to worry at a problem until they find a solution - they will pick the brains of others. In their intellectual pursuits, as in other departments of their lives, they risk becoming dilettantes, losing themselves in too many projects which they follow until they become difficult.
-In love they are fickle, not intentionally so but because of the basic inconsistency of their emotional nature, which has an amoral aspect to it. Their is a side to Geminians which can become deeply involved emotionally, and another, hostile to sentimentality, which stands back from a romantic situation, laughing at it and the protagonists in it, including themselves while analyzing it intellectually. Gemini subjects take nothing seriously. So, in love, in spite of their temporary depth of feeling, for the intensity of involvement lasts only while it is new, they are superficial, light-hearted, cool, flirtatious and unimaginative in the understanding of the pain they may give others. They like intrigue, the excitement of the chase, but once they have caught the prey, they lose interest and look around for the next creature to pursue. In less serious situations they make witty, entertaining companions, good acquaintances rather than friends. Even at their worst they are never dull - there is usually playfulness below the surface, and they can be brilliant conversationalists - but they can also be quarrelsome, prattlers, boasters, liars and cheats.
-manipulators of language, in speech and writing
Possible Health Concerns...
-seases and accidents associated with the upper part of the body, as well as nervous and pulmonary disorders such as catarrh and bronchitis.
-Their mercurial nature may also affect a constitution which is not strong if it is put under strain.
-You are prone to taking unnecessary risks and wind up harming yourself or others in the process. Sometimes pursuing pleasure too vigorously could also qualify as risk taking.
* LIKES Talking
Novelty and the unusual
Variety in life
Multiple projects all going at once
Reading
* DISLIKES Feeling tied down
Learning, such as school
Being in a rut
Mental inaction
Being alone
Go here to see the rest of the info
http://www.astrology-online.com/gemini.htm
Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively
Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistent
Cunning and inquisitive
-On the one hand it produces the virtue of versatility, and on the other the vices of two-facedness and flightiness.
-When they are good, they are very attractive; when they are bad they are more the worse for being the charmers they are
-Like children they are lively, and happy, if circumstances are right for them, or egocentric, imaginative and restless.
-They take up new activities enthusiastically but lack application, constantly needing new interests, flitting from project to project as apparently purposelessly as a butterfly dancing from flower to flower.
-To them life is a game which must always be full of fresh moves and continuous entertainment, free of labor and routine.
-Changing horses in the middle of the stream is another small quirk in the Gemini personality which makes decision making, and sticking to a decision, particularly hard for them.
-Since they lack the quality of conscientiousness, they are apt to fight a losing battle in any attempts they make to be moral (in the widest sense of the word).
-good qualities are attractive and come easily to them. They are affectionate, courteous, kind, generous, and thoughtful towards the poor and suffering - provided none of the activities resulting from expressing these traits interferes too greatly with their own lives and comforts.
-They quickly learn to use their outward attractiveness to gain their own ends, and when striving for these they will use any weapon in their armory - unscrupulous lying, and cunning evasiveness; escaping blame by contriving to put it on other people, wrapped up in all the charm they can turn on. In their better moments they may strive to be honest and straightforward, but self-interest is almost always the victor. If things go against them, they sulk like children.
-They reflect every change in their surroundings, like chameleons, and can become pessimistic, sullen, peevish and materialistically self-centered if circumstances force them to struggle in any way. If the conditions of life become really adverse, their strength of will may desert them entirely.
-can become uncertain of themselves, either withdrawn, or nervously excitable worriers, sullenly discontented, hard and irritable, with "Self" looming ever larger in their struggles.
-On the other hand their versatility can make them very adaptable, adjusting themselves to control the world around them by means of their inherent ingenuity and cleverness.
-Most Gemini have a keen, intuitive, sometimes brilliant intelligence and they love cerebral challenges. But their concentration, though intense for a while, does not last. Their mental agility and energy give them a voracious appetite for knowledge from youth onward, though they dislike the labor of learning. They easily grasp almost everything requiring intelligence and mental dexterity, and are often able to marry manual skills to their qualities of mind.
-Their intellect is strongly analytical and sometimes gives them so great an ability to see both sides of a question that they vacillate and find it hard to make decisions.
-If faced with difficulties, they have little determination to worry at a problem until they find a solution - they will pick the brains of others. In their intellectual pursuits, as in other departments of their lives, they risk becoming dilettantes, losing themselves in too many projects which they follow until they become difficult.
-In love they are fickle, not intentionally so but because of the basic inconsistency of their emotional nature, which has an amoral aspect to it. Their is a side to Geminians which can become deeply involved emotionally, and another, hostile to sentimentality, which stands back from a romantic situation, laughing at it and the protagonists in it, including themselves while analyzing it intellectually. Gemini subjects take nothing seriously. So, in love, in spite of their temporary depth of feeling, for the intensity of involvement lasts only while it is new, they are superficial, light-hearted, cool, flirtatious and unimaginative in the understanding of the pain they may give others. They like intrigue, the excitement of the chase, but once they have caught the prey, they lose interest and look around for the next creature to pursue. In less serious situations they make witty, entertaining companions, good acquaintances rather than friends. Even at their worst they are never dull - there is usually playfulness below the surface, and they can be brilliant conversationalists - but they can also be quarrelsome, prattlers, boasters, liars and cheats.
-manipulators of language, in speech and writing
-seases and accidents associated with the upper part of the body, as well as nervous and pulmonary disorders such as catarrh and bronchitis.
-Their mercurial nature may also affect a constitution which is not strong if it is put under strain.
-You are prone to taking unnecessary risks and wind up harming yourself or others in the process. Sometimes pursuing pleasure too vigorously could also qualify as risk taking.
* LIKES Talking
Novelty and the unusual
Variety in life
Multiple projects all going at once
Reading
* DISLIKES Feeling tied down
Learning, such as school
Being in a rut
Mental inaction
Being alone
Go here to see the rest of the info
http://www.astrology-online.com/gemini.htm
The Horoscope Investigation : Pt 1
Today's papers were E Mths and Social Studies(SS), and gosh, I think they went well cause I THINK that those papers were easy. A little too easy.*Gulps*
Ok forget about those long tuitions I am having these days, and I want to focus on one thing for now.
Horoscope~
This Horoscope system has intrigue me since I was a little boy, but I paid no special attention to it, cause...I'm can't be bothered =X
But today it's different. I want to put it on a test by using me, my brother ( Total cocky JERK. But it's a brotherly thing ) and some others ^^.
Firstly, my Brother(Total cocky JERK. But it's a brotherly thing)
He's a Libra, and I cant reveal his birthday to you people due to security reasons.
Let us see the definitions of the Libras :
-Traditional Libra Traits
Diplomatic and urbane
Romantic and charming
Easygoing and sociable
Idealistic and peaceable
On the dark side....
Indecisive and changeable
Gullible and easily influenced
Flirtatious and self-indulgent
Quotes from the text which are true bout my Bro :
-are naturally kind, very gentle (He USED to like that)
-they do not tolerate argument from anyone who challenges their opinions, for once they have reached a conclusion, its truth seems to them self-evident; and among their faults is an impatience of criticism and a greed for approval.
-They loathe cruelty, viciousness and vulgarity
-They have good perception and observation and their critical ability, with which they are able to view their own efforts as well as those of others, gives their work integrity.
-The negative Libran character may show frivolity, flirtatiousness and shallowness. It can be changeable and indecisive, impatient of routine, colorlessly conventional and timid, easygoing to the point of inertia
-yet Librans can shock everyone around them with sudden storms of rage.
-Their love of pleasure may lead them into extravagance; Libran men can degenerate into reckless gamblers (eg only)
-squander their wealth and talents in their overenthusiasm for causes which they espouse
-dislike coarse, dirty work
-others are extremely ambitious
-ome Librans are gifted in fashion designing or in devising new cosmetics; others may find success as artists, composers, critics, writers, interior decorators, welfare workers or valuers, and they have an ability in the management of all sorts of public entertainment.
Possible Health Concerns...
-weaknesses in the back
-They need to avoid overindulgence in food and especially drink
* LIKES The finer things in life
* conviviality
* DISLIKES Violence
* Injustice
* Brutishness
* Being a slave to fashion (100% accurate)
Go here to see the rest of the info
Ok forget about those long tuitions I am having these days, and I want to focus on one thing for now.
This Horoscope system has intrigue me since I was a little boy, but I paid no special attention to it, cause...I'm can't be bothered =X
But today it's different. I want to put it on a test by using me, my brother ( Total cocky JERK. But it's a brotherly thing ) and some others ^^.
Firstly, my Brother(Total cocky JERK. But it's a brotherly thing)
He's a Libra, and I cant reveal his birthday to you people due to security reasons.
Let us see the definitions of the Libras :
Diplomatic and urbane
Romantic and charming
Easygoing and sociable
Idealistic and peaceable
Indecisive and changeable
Gullible and easily influenced
Flirtatious and self-indulgent
-are naturally kind, very gentle (He USED to like that)
-they do not tolerate argument from anyone who challenges their opinions, for once they have reached a conclusion, its truth seems to them self-evident; and among their faults is an impatience of criticism and a greed for approval.
-They loathe cruelty, viciousness and vulgarity
-They have good perception and observation and their critical ability, with which they are able to view their own efforts as well as those of others, gives their work integrity.
-The negative Libran character may show frivolity, flirtatiousness and shallowness. It can be changeable and indecisive, impatient of routine, colorlessly conventional and timid, easygoing to the point of inertia
-yet Librans can shock everyone around them with sudden storms of rage.
-Their love of pleasure may lead them into extravagance; Libran men can degenerate into reckless gamblers (eg only)
-squander their wealth and talents in their overenthusiasm for causes which they espouse
-dislike coarse, dirty work
-others are extremely ambitious
-ome Librans are gifted in fashion designing or in devising new cosmetics; others may find success as artists, composers, critics, writers, interior decorators, welfare workers or valuers, and they have an ability in the management of all sorts of public entertainment.
-weaknesses in the back
-They need to avoid overindulgence in food and especially drink
* LIKES The finer things in life
* conviviality
* DISLIKES Violence
* Injustice
* Brutishness
* Being a slave to fashion (100% accurate)
Go here to see the rest of the info
Saturday, November 04, 2006
The 2 Weeks Countdown
*I like this phrase. Sounds holy.
May everything goes well for all I know, regardless of the conflicts, misunderstandings, or any other negative incicents which dampen or hurt our relationships. Should God exist, bless you all.
Thanks for that "Jia You". It make a huge difference.
Well don't think much about the previous post I posted yesterday. Or the day before. Something bad happened, and I need to vent my anger somewhere, so I posted, because killing the Covenant armies in Halo is too repetive and lacked "kick", and my com is formatted clean of its Warcraft and Dota Gametypes( -_-" You should know who ). So here I was typing away in the wee hours of saturday morning, venting my anger with words. Man I felt better, although I didn't sleep well ( O lvls stress ).
My family has that Love-Hate relations. This is how we are, and we care and love each other deeply, although we dont act it out in front of each other cause we either dont think it's necessary or it's just that we dont know how to. ( The guys in this household are good examples. )
Anyway as I am typing this post now, time is slowly ticking away, and I have a SS paper due tomorrow morning at 10. About 12 hours more(T_T). When the big 'O's is around the corner, I did what I think some may consider nuts. I signed up more 3 more subjects ( E mths, A mths and Eng ) for tuition. Remember the 4hr Physics/Chem lessons ? My tutor is teaching all those. Man he's some super powerhouse. You gotta see to believe such man exist. Anyway he's so good that I hopped in last minute to "absorb" some of his vast knowledge, with E Mths paper 1 just 2 days away and paper 2 just next Friday, and Eng just next Wednesday. A mths, I'm not so sure but it's about 2 weeks later. Take it as an insurance, cause I'm not 100% certain that I can get A1 for them. Maybe just 60~75% sure. Anyway, this may be the LAST post I write in this few weeks due to INTENSIVE studies.
Things to remember :
-Populate the computer with the necessary data
-Prepare for 2 months worth of entertainment
-Get Fen Kai's Hp no. ( Not FK -__-" )
-Get Fen Kai to lend his Chung Cheng Year Book
-Find her pic, get relevant data if possible. I think I know which school she came from =P
-Learn new things and dare to dream big :
1) Learn the Japanese language, its writings if possible
2) Perfect the way of speaking English and Mandarin. Improve on understanding of the Chinese writings
3) Learn Hokkien and communicate with Ah Ma.
4) Electric Guitar XD !!!
5) Do those DJ stuffs. Techno, Trance, remixes etc
6) Organise Class activities
*- "Bounce with me, I feel the energy, Imagine a loss of weight is coming off of me.
Oh baby, dance with me and be my fantasy tonight =P"
*Part of lyrics from the Song : Bounce (DJ Manian Remix) from Speed Up 4, EQ music
*Relate to the bouncing part. The fantasy is irrelevant.
My family has that Love-Hate relations. This is how we are, and we care and love each other deeply, although we dont act it out in front of each other cause we either dont think it's necessary or it's just that we dont know how to. ( The guys in this household are good examples. )
Anyway as I am typing this post now, time is slowly ticking away, and I have a SS paper due tomorrow morning at 10. About 12 hours more(T_T). When the big 'O's is around the corner, I did what I think some may consider nuts. I signed up more 3 more subjects ( E mths, A mths and Eng ) for tuition. Remember the 4hr Physics/Chem lessons ? My tutor is teaching all those. Man he's some super powerhouse. You gotta see to believe such man exist. Anyway he's so good that I hopped in last minute to "absorb" some of his vast knowledge, with E Mths paper 1 just 2 days away and paper 2 just next Friday, and Eng just next Wednesday. A mths, I'm not so sure but it's about 2 weeks later. Take it as an insurance, cause I'm not 100% certain that I can get A1 for them. Maybe just 60~75% sure. Anyway, this may be the LAST post I write in this few weeks due to INTENSIVE studies.
-Populate the computer with the necessary data
-Prepare for 2 months worth of entertainment
-Get Fen Kai's Hp no. ( Not FK -__-" )
-Get Fen Kai to lend his Chung Cheng Year Book
-Find her pic, get relevant data if possible. I think I know which school she came from =P
-Learn new things and dare to dream big :
2) Perfect the way of speaking English and Mandarin. Improve on understanding of the Chinese writings
3) Learn Hokkien and communicate with Ah Ma.
4) Electric Guitar XD !!!
5) Do those DJ stuffs. Techno, Trance, remixes etc
6) Organise Class activities
*- "Bounce with me, I feel the energy, Imagine a loss of weight is coming off of me.
Oh baby, dance with me and be my fantasy tonight =P"
*Part of lyrics from the Song : Bounce (DJ Manian Remix) from Speed Up 4, EQ music
*Relate to the bouncing part. The fantasy is irrelevant.
Friday, November 03, 2006
Just less than 1 hour ago, I got into this major fight with my
MAJOR RETARDED BROTHER WHO IS A SELF-CLAIMED COMPUTER EXPERT BUT DO NOT KNOW HOW TO SHUT DOWN THE COM PROPERLY, WHICH DIED TWICE DUE TO SUDDEN SHUTDOWN BY SWITCHING OF THE POWER, WHO'S VERY COCKY JUST BECAUSE HIS PW PRESENTATION WAS SHOWN TO THE WHOLE SCHOOL AND HAD A TEACHER TO PRAISE HIM TO THE SKIES.
over the computer. Again. The day before,this retard killed the com by abruptly cutting off its power by closing the power switch. Com can't start, the retard whines until I came home from a 4hr tuition session. I came home, attempted to save the com, but I knew my limit and decided to cease all "Saving" actions on the com until help arrives. Retard who thought he's a genius, went to PC recovery, and reformatted the whole hard disk. About 80 GB of information wiped cleaned. Thank God I backed up most files in my external Hard Disk, but then some of important information in the main Hard Disk was gone. Mr KuKu Head, with alot of confidence and pride, told our sis to convey this message to me :
"Go and tell GeGe, I repair the com liao =P."
I heard his voice. Darn cocky. I hate this attitude especially from a loser. He did not even know that he formatted the com. Til I bowed to him for being a retard.
After this whole retarded incident, I accepted the fact that the com was reformatted, and I set up a new system in the com. My dear brother had to install all those sh*t into the com again. ( Roughly 70% of the total main and external hard disk spaces were taken by his things. Among which 90% of them are junks, eg: Incompleted projects, incompleted downloads - Among which is a 5GB game but is unable to load )
I told him off, he shot back , I shot back. War begun. It was so intense that Mom had to come down to interupt. Got defeated badly, Mom went up and did her usual sh*t again. After this sh*t, Dad came down and told me off. F**K you @ssh**e. I dont get to see you more than 5hrs a week. You never spared any concern over my health. My Days. My Life. So who in the world told you to come and lecture me, although you are my Father in the name of Law.
I am emotionally dried up. I'm tired of this whole sh*t. I never had a good childhood, I never had anyone to depend on. No one. Not even my "Closest" friends understands my thoughts. It's not that they're incompetent or anything, but I'm more of a solo kia. I don't want them to know. After the 'O's, I'm gonna try to lead my OWN life. Do what I want. Get to find excuses to escape from this home. Home dont feel home anymore. My soul wander aimlessly in the dark, and amid the darkness, the moon shines lovely in the sky. Nevermind the light is reflected off the Moon's surface from the sun, the Moon does feel the void in my heart. But not all of it.
*Thinks of the song : MoonLight Shadow ( It's a great song )
I wept. For a few minutes. This has been years since I last cried. What is my purpose?
I look for this special person who can make me forget all my worries. To feel my heart flutter again. Get to feel what Love really is. Should I get to find her one day, I would also want to love her all my best. Be there for her. Live life to the fullest together.
This song by Cascada expresses what I think I think it is :
I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
- I feel lost. Dear God, I know this is very unlike me for I always contradict your existence, but let me score well for my "O"s to enter a good JC, and maybe, I'll get to see her, and also find out my purpose in life. I'll do my best in this remaining days towards the big "O"s, and to also always give all my best to everything which matters.
*I'm a freethinker.
over the computer. Again. The day before,this retard killed the com by abruptly cutting off its power by closing the power switch. Com can't start, the retard whines until I came home from a 4hr tuition session. I came home, attempted to save the com, but I knew my limit and decided to cease all "Saving" actions on the com until help arrives. Retard who thought he's a genius, went to PC recovery, and reformatted the whole hard disk. About 80 GB of information wiped cleaned. Thank God I backed up most files in my external Hard Disk, but then some of important information in the main Hard Disk was gone. Mr KuKu Head, with alot of confidence and pride, told our sis to convey this message to me :
I heard his voice. Darn cocky. I hate this attitude especially from a loser. He did not even know that he formatted the com. Til I bowed to him for being a retard.
After this whole retarded incident, I accepted the fact that the com was reformatted, and I set up a new system in the com. My dear brother had to install all those sh*t into the com again. ( Roughly 70% of the total main and external hard disk spaces were taken by his things. Among which 90% of them are junks, eg: Incompleted projects, incompleted downloads - Among which is a 5GB game but is unable to load )
I told him off, he shot back , I shot back. War begun. It was so intense that Mom had to come down to interupt. Got defeated badly, Mom went up and did her usual sh*t again. After this sh*t, Dad came down and told me off. F**K you @ssh**e. I dont get to see you more than 5hrs a week. You never spared any concern over my health. My Days. My Life. So who in the world told you to come and lecture me, although you are my Father in the name of Law.
I am emotionally dried up. I'm tired of this whole sh*t. I never had a good childhood, I never had anyone to depend on. No one. Not even my "Closest" friends understands my thoughts. It's not that they're incompetent or anything, but I'm more of a solo kia. I don't want them to know. After the 'O's, I'm gonna try to lead my OWN life. Do what I want. Get to find excuses to escape from this home. Home dont feel home anymore. My soul wander aimlessly in the dark, and amid the darkness, the moon shines lovely in the sky. Nevermind the light is reflected off the Moon's surface from the sun, the Moon does feel the void in my heart. But not all of it.
*Thinks of the song : MoonLight Shadow ( It's a great song )
I wept. For a few minutes. This has been years since I last cried. What is my purpose?
I look for this special person who can make me forget all my worries. To feel my heart flutter again. Get to feel what Love really is. Should I get to find her one day, I would also want to love her all my best. Be there for her. Live life to the fullest together.
This song by Cascada expresses what I think I think it is :
I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so...
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
- I feel lost. Dear God, I know this is very unlike me for I always contradict your existence, but let me score well for my "O"s to enter a good JC, and maybe, I'll get to see her, and also find out my purpose in life. I'll do my best in this remaining days towards the big "O"s, and to also always give all my best to everything which matters.
*I'm a freethinker.
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